#self deprecation
self deprecation is bad but will i continue doing it? absolutely! however i am making an effort to do it less and less and i encourage you all to do the same. you won’t stop immediately but the less you do it the better you’ll feel and also you deserve self love so be kind to yourself
i truly don’t understand how people like staring at themselves in the mirror. one glance that last for too long and i can feel my brain shortcutting and preparing itself for a breakdown i just can’t do it i hate it here
im young yet my body feels rotten and wasted like it’s already decaying ready to just become dust. i hate being pointed out that im young as if that means i must be perfectly healthy. i hate feeling like my body has failed me and im not like others. i hate my body and i hate myself
not to be on my self-deprecation mode but existing as an ugly person be taking a toll on me as time goes by, like damn im ugly as fuck and nobody wants me and i am definitely not getting attractive ever, and i’ll just have to live like this for the rest of my life, this is pain
I’m so fuckin alone in this fuckin world.
To my heart:
Rest in peace.
I will breakmyself
Like everytime
Youbroke my heart.
I’ve got to stay high all the time to keep you out my mind.
I don’t have a reason, I just know it really hurts a lot.
I’m a little drunk and I miss you a lot.
I don’t feel I’m nothing.
I’m really sure I’m nothing.
I know we’re not machines, but I’d like to resetme.
If I fall tonight, could you bring me back to life?
You’re not the only one who is tired of this shit.
Call me baby and play with me.
Am I that easy to let go?
Sorry guys I’m a bit numb :/
My life choices be like:
Today I wearing the lovely scent of “Shit out your eyeball and go eat some grenades” by Dior.