#sewer slide
Me: *makes a joke*
My therapist:
the masculine urge to end it all right now
Love getting attached to my middle aged therapist who reminds me of a mom…love that for me lol.
Dear Diary,
I feel like I was born to be hated.
Dear ▇▇▇,
You were so kind before they dragged you to hell.
Dear Diary,
I don’t want to die but I need this to end.
Dear ▇▇▇,
You have no idea how many nights I’ve spent crying over you. We used to talk everyday but now I can barely remember what your voice sounds like, you don’t answer my texts either. You only ever speak to me when you need to vent, I feel so used. That doesn’t matter, I still love you even if it’s wrong ❦
Dear Diary,
Why do people forget about me so fast?
Dear Diary,
I don’t care about anything anymore. I’ve buried my dreams so deep within myself no amount of self harm could ever carve them out.
Dear Diary,
I don’t think I was meant to live.
Dear Diary,
Why do I feel so much?
Dear ▇▇▇,
The way you give me attention and affection so unpredictably makes me miss you even more. Everytime I see your name pop up on my screen I immediately forget how miserable I feel and become even more desperate for you. Can you feel it too, the kind of pain made out of real love?
Dear Diary,
I find it so funny when people tell me “it’s all in your head” , uh ya that’s kind of the problem.
Dear Diary,
You know those times when there’s a really significant event in your life and so your abuser reaches out to you but you have to be nice to protect yourself?
Dear Diary,
I am greatful for my depression. If I hadn’t experienced such awful things in life then I would never know true happiness.
Dear Diary,
I was stupid for believing I could accomplish anything, my pathetic life isn’t heading anywhere.
