Vegan life conundrums 4.0

Person: so what kinda vegan are you? Are you like high carb/low fat, keto, whole foods plant based, organic, raw, fruitarian, high protein, low carb, junk food, gluten free….

Me: Yes.


N.b.Apart from gluten free that has literally nothing to do with animals and I’m honestly baffled how the correlation came about

Had no clue but apparently fasting/ restricting is causing my acid reflux to act up,, my throat is in so much pain I wanna die but I can’t eat more or stop fasting

When I want something savoury and can’t be bothered to count cals I just take two carrots (30 cals each for large ones but I rounded up. give or take but it’s carrots and even if I’m off it won’t be by a lot and I know it won’t make me gain weight so it’s totally fine!) this may seem weird but I put mine in pickle juice. It just so happened I finished the jar so I just dumped them in but usually I just put some in a bowl with them and mix them around with spices! Pickle juice is 0-2 cals for a huge amount. Basically the same concept as black coffee it shouldn’t even matter calorie wise! It’s all vinegar basically which is 0 cals. Then I pop them in the oven for half an hour. It’s SO GOOD with Walden farms barbecue sauce! You could make a lot more but I cut mine thick so they look like less! But this is my go to after work for something warm and safe yay (:

72 cal berry granola parfait!

I was really wanting a parfait, but the ones here are 250-300 cals and as someone who saves most of her calories for nighttime, for dinner with my family/sister/friends, that reaaaally didn’t work into my cal budget. So I made this low cal one!

I used:

-12 grams made good berry granola minis (45 cals)

-50 grams iogo 0% strawberry yogurt (17.5)

-4 blackberries (9)

Total: 71.5 cals

Low cal apple crumble/crisp!

I was craving apple crisp like HELL. It’s what my grandma used to make for me as a child and I’ve been really missing it.

So I made this, it’s pretty filling! Super warm, cozy and tasty.

Here’s what you’ll need!

-an apple (calories may vary)

-0 cal cooking spray

-oats (calories may vary)

-low calorie ice cream of your choice (calories may vary)

-cinnamon

-milk (calories may vary on brand)

I will show you all the brands I used to make mine so low cal! What I like about this recipe is that it’s so versatile. (:

First step is I chopped my apple in cubes, added my cashew milk, sprinkled some cinnamon and microwaved it until it became all gooey and soft. Then I added some zero cal cooking spray to my oats and microwaved them acting as the “butter” on a plate I scooped up my apples, and placed them down. Then I added my oats on top, and microwaved it again for about 45 seconds. I added ¼ cup salted caramel ice cream on top (arctic zero, SO GOOD.) it’s really good for this. Then I added the rest of the mixture from the cooked apple and drizzled in on top. This was SO yummy and filled me up. It’s a really satisfying dessert for only 121 calories (rounding it up to 125 for the cinnamon sprinkle) which is half the amount of a protein bar (my weakness) and a pretty good portion size!

ED thought ☕️

Before my ED, I never drank coffee. If I did I’d dump a lot of sugar and milk. I’d dip my toast in it. It was my favourite. Over time I drank it black, I hated it. I see old videos of myself when I was overweight or had just started to lose weight and I see myself holding coffee cups. I hated the taste and at the moment I’d scrunch up my nose and wish it was a chai latte, or white hot chocolate.

Then after a while I started adding Splenda, it became more bearable. I liked it more that way, then once I was on vacation in my grandmas small down and in the diner there, they had no Splenda. So I started drinking it black again, and began to like it. My palate was still sensitive though, so I’d have a list of places with the black coffees I’d prefer.

I started to LOVE black coffee, I can even drink a&w coffee black and I don’t even notice how strong it is. If you didn’t know, the black coffee at a&w is apparently very strong to my friends, my mom even has to water it down with warm water when we go for breakfast there.

Now, I can’t imagine myself drinking the old sugary drinks I used to. Hot chocolate is a big no unless I make it myself with cocoa powder and a little bit of Splenda but even then I barely add any because now I just really like strong, plain coffee.

I also learned to love almonds, i could eat a whole bag. When I was little I’d avoid them like the plague, i thought it was the most bland disgusting food, EVER.

My ED has caused me a lot of problems, a lot of pain. Don’t get me wrong I fucking wish I could make it vanish. Complete HELL.

The only thing I suppose I’m kinda thankful for that it has given me is that I’ve learned the lesson to appreciate food. No matter how bland, I’m not picky and greedy anymore.

My taste buds have changed a lot.

My view on food has changed even more and I’ve changed the most.

Does anyone else feel this way too?

Low cal Christmas treats!

So basically, and I don’t know about you, but to me, I’ve found that the holidays revolve around (food wise) pastries, cookies, sweet and savoury pies, potatoes, a lot of carbs, cakes, and sauces. Don’t even get me started on the liquid cals. Because of this, I’ve gained quite a bit of weight instead of losing it. I’ve been wanting to feel festive and so I’ve been eating a lot of these fattening things. Though there are MANY holiday treats that are low cal. Thugs I have forgotten about, because my family LOVES desserts. Here are ways to feel festive though! If you simply want to have safer options, or anything like that!

-clementines. (40, each) the official holiday fruit!

-apples. (50- 80, usually) If you bake them in the oven they’re really good! I add one tablespoon of whipped cream for ten cals, amazing.

-candy canes! (70 cals for 3 mini ones! I’m bringing some to a holiday party so I can have some with my friends!)

-flavoured teas, now these are great options. (0 cals) i have the Christmas in Paris flavour, it’s a mix of lavender and chocolate. I have peppermint, a classic! Candy cane lane, sugar cookie, gingerbread spice, all kinds! I got mine at bulk barn. (:

-hot cocoa! ☕️This is usually very high cal, I know, but you can mix cocoa powder, 1tbsp (5-10 cal depending on brand) with sweetener I add one tbsp but I’d experiment depending on how much of a sweet tooth you have! And boom, 10 cal hot cocoa! If you mix it with hot water though, if you mix it with milk or but milks it’ll go up. (Not by much and not milks are good for you! And to be honest with water tastes the same though, at least to me.) add a mini candy cane for more festivity

-ginger cookies!!! (Amazing amazing) These are the ones I’ve found! Mini gingerbread men (35 cals each) but it depends. Usually they won’t be very high, though, and they’re nice to dip in tea! Usually for a big chunk of a gingerbread house of half of a huge gingerbread cookie it’ll be around 110 cals.

-GINGER CANDY. When I restrict super low, and I don’t feel safe that day but still want something holiday-y (literally every day starting from December 1st to January 10th. It’s a curse.) mine is 10 cal each, they’re hard candy so they take a while to suck on and stop the binge urges, and they have this strong ginger taste they’re really good! They also come in chewy candy but they’re a bit higher in cals (not much maybe give or take 8 cals) but I can’t with my braces unfortunately.

-APPLE CIDER (5 cals) usually normal apple cider is high cal depending on the brand but this one is very good. You mix 1L water, 1 and a half tbsp apple cider vinegar, sweetener and cinnamon (all depending on your taste and how sugary you like it!) and then warm it up in a mug. Boom. Super tasty, you’ll thank me later and I KNOW apple cider vinegar is disgusting and you’re probably thinking “it was good up until now my dude” or “there’s a space in hell waiting for you” but trust me, it’s great. I was showed the recipe and now I’m passing it on this post if you haven’t heard of it already!

-spices! This may not seem like much but spices especially cinnamon and nutmeg are a HUGE part of the holiday treats and delicacies. Add them to your coffee, teas, fruit, and boom there is a great way to feel festive for little to no cals. Not actual cals anyway, so go nuts!

-flavoured coffee!! ☕️ I found many holiday ones for barely any cals. (10) there’s eggnog, gingerbread, and cinnamon spice. Mine are from the brand irrésistibles but I’m sure there are many!

-skinny syrups. (0 cals) i have peppermint bark, sugar cookie, and salted caramel! From the brand skinny girl. Guys and gals, Marshall’s or winners, food section, will save you.

-cookies!! if you want a cookie flavour, take the fibre one brand bars (they’re chewy like a cookie) but square. I didn’t like these alone, but if you warm it up, it’s amazing! Kinda like a blondie bar!!

Ice cream! halo top cake out with holiday flavours and they’re to DIE for. There’s a gingerbread one, a candy cane, pumpkin pie or spice and cool way cake out with some too. Only 90-100 per serving or 200-350 cals per pint! They’re very accurate and honestly just thinking about it is making me crave it

These are all I have for now! I’ll add to it over the next days, promise! I know I’m also kinda late. I’ve been working insane shifts Tomorrow I’ll be putting up a post of super low cal (20-100 cal) holiday treats. But I wanted it to be a post of my original recipes and I’ll be working on them all night (: I hope you find at least one or two things you’d like or have, but if not I’ll put out more recipes before Christmas, I gotchu, boos. I want to make this as happy as I can. The holidays can suck, especially if you feel like you’re missing out. When you don’t allow yourself nostalgic treats, or when most treats are high cal, so I’ll come out with as many things as I can! and I’m sorry I didn’t do it sooner. happy holidays, and stay safe. ❤️

Drinking away the thought of my weekly

binges (-:

When I crave a nice cozy bowl of mashed potatoes i replace it with carrots so I can have a big bowl and watch my show instead of measuring such a small, or just a limited portion of mashed potatoes on a little plate. So I have room to also eat protein too or just triple the amount LOL

Low cal pumpkin banana bread!

-1 cup oats (330)

-small banana (90)

-1 tbsp honey (60)

-1 cup pumpkin purée (70)

-2 eggs (70)

I added salt, cinnamon, which i don’t count! Also you can add Splenda and such but I hate the taste of Splenda in baked goods so that’s why I used the honey, that and the banana will make it naturally sweet!

Total for the whole recipe: 620 calories

I separated into 4 because I wanted a big piece (155 cals and it’s HUGE) and added vanilla halo top! So good

78 cals pumpkin spice milkshake

This tastes exactly as if the pumpkin pie blizzard from DQ and a banana shake had a love child. I’m REALLY craving pumpkin spice flavoured things so I made this!

- ½ cup almond milk (15)

-¼ cup pumpkin purée (17.5)

-½ a small banana (45)

-butter extract, optional! (0)

-cinnamon and pumpkin spice (calories will vary but I don’t count cals in spices)

The pumpkin spice is also optional, but the cinnamon makes it REALLY good. I added a lot because I’m obsessed w cinnamon but adding a lot makes it amazing.

Total: 77.5 cals

Easy 53 calorie peanut butter cookie!

So, I tried making a low cal peanut butter cookie with pb2, pb fit, etc but it was just TERRIBLE and not satisfying at all. I was about to just give up and eat like 5 tablespoons of peanut butter straight from the jar but then I found THIS GEM and I am IN LOVE. It tastes indentical, literally identical to a normal peanut butter cookie you’d have on Christmas. Kid you not. The best part is that it’s low ingredient and SUPER easy and fast. I’m so exited about this guys

You’ll need:

-1 tbsp peanut butter better Crocker cookie mix (I also put it on my food scale it ended at 53 cals)

-2tbsp oat fiber (maybe 1 and a half if you’re sensitive to the texture easily but when I made it with 2 it tasted AMAZING. Than again I really don’t mind the textured oat fiber)

-pinch of salt

-pinch of baking soda

Usually when I make cookies that are low cal I add stevia so at the end it has that fake sugar taste but for this, the ready made mix already has sugar so no fake stevia taste. BLESS. (We deserve real sugar, even if it might be scary! I promise it’s okay.)

Anyway!! Mix all dry ingredients, I added give or take 1 tbsp of water. Just eyeball it that’s what I did! But make sure it’s not too watery.

Microwave for one minute and let cool for three minutes ish and

boom. HEAVEN.

These are the low fat containers of yogurt i use. It deserves its own post honestly, I use them for a lot! They’re only 35 calories and come in dessert flavours too!!

Use 1: put a popsicle stick in it and freeze. Boom low cal frozen yogurt bar!

Use 2: lay it out on parchement paper and add toppings. I do graham crackers crunched up, fruit and two almonds but I grate them on top and it makes low cal bark!

Use 3: it’s really good with oats, it makes it extra filling and flavourful. Instead of buying flavoured oatmeal with added sugar I just buy the plain one then mix this in if I don’t have time to measure out fruit or honey

Use 4: I put two of these in a bowl with a few slices of strawberries it looks huge and it’s only 78-85 cals and so this way I don’t worry anyone or feel guilty myself.

Give it a go. It’s saved my ass more times than I can count

Low cal summer snack

We need a blueberry emoji. Seriously but anyway! I’m sure many of you have heard of or seen this and I always kinda pushed it to the side but PLEASE try it!

All I used for this is blueberries and low fat yogurt, I plopped the blueberries in and then put it on parchement paper to freeze!

-1 container blueberries (78 cals)

-1 container low fat yogurt (35 cals)

Whole recipe= 113 cals!!

This is so good and refreshing. It’s also like a really yummy version of frozen yogurt!! Only much more satisfying. It took me an hour to eat tbh because it gave me brain freeze a lot and I took my time. Also blueberries are really good for you and the yogurt has protein, so even though I wasn’t hungry I didn’t feel bad. I HIGHLY suggest this if you feel like you’re going to binge, but it was so filling i would consider this two portions if you’re just looking for a snack. If you have half it’s only 57 cals!! Say safe loves.

I just made the best THING EVER. THIS WHOLE PLATE IS ONLY 152 CALS.

So ive tried to like angel hair/zero/shirataki noodles for ages but I can’t. Call me dramatic but It makes me want to cry and I just cannot get past the gross texture so I looked into RICE NOODLES. But my secret for bulk is bean sprouts, boiled!! Mixing them with the noodles (and the best part is you don’t need many noodles just keep them long and don’t break them apart for it all to mix together nicely!) and BOOM. Big bowl of cozy and normal texture noodles!! As you can see I added other things for bulk and flavour like veggies, sauces (these are my low cal ones I mix them!) and of course siracha thing (in my opinion it’s better ) it’s also really good wth crunchy veggies like cucumber, carrots and Kimchi!! It’s also super filling!! You can see how much it fills a plate next to my hand (: anyway! Enjoy

This one’s simple and super sweet. I like it in the morning or late at night, I’ve never had a peach pie but if they taste half as good as this than I’ve been missing out.

One peach (roughly 100g)

Two tablespoons quickoats

Four tablespoons nutmilk

Four tablespoons water

One pack sweetener (Alternatively one teaspoon sugar adds 16cal, bringing our total to 99cals)

Optional: a pinch of cinnamon.

Stir it all and cook one of two ways:

Microwave for three minutes, allow to cool.

After mircowaving bake at 350 for about 10 minutes (in oven safe dish) to crisp up the top.

Enjoy, it’s worth it.

26/01/21

todays meals + had one slice of bread :/

[ 5km ‍♀️ ]

i am not hungry

melancholic thoughts

between purple clouds

are filling my body

back on track, will be active again + posting my food

Can’t beat a nice slice of homemade healthy banana loaf cake