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today has all been about the way i look and EDs in everyone and every1 worrying for some1 that isn’t me i’m so tired why can’t i ever reach for help im at my serious limit i hate this so much i know i don’t show signs iknow it’s my fault it always is why am i always like this why can’t i be normal why why why why can’t i b a good s/o whag is wrong w me i’m genuinely so close to killing mshelf there’s always something wrong w me
man i wanna die
when i’m at my best i say : i fucking hate this illness!!!!!
when i’m at my worse i say : I HAVENT EATEN IN 48HOURS WOOOHOOOOOOO
happy ( well more unhappy ) 1y to me developing my 3rd ED
i started getting acne all over my chin like rlly bad acne so i started overdrinking again n now i relapsed
my life is a never ending cycle of
relapse —> pass out —> stop caring —> relapse again
woahhhhh huge urge to kms all of a sudden
CAUSE IM ANOREXIC MY GUY WHY ELSE LMFAOOOO
never ending cycle
IM GONNA KILL MYSELFFFFFFF YEAH YEAHHHHHY
anorexia made me crazy but the bones r worth it
when i wanna cry i just go on tumblr and look at my collarbone n then all of a sudden everything’s alright
i’m going to kill myself ( affirmation )
i love cassie cause she’s JUST LIKE ME, likes yes girl i have anorexia n self murder thoughts too n go for horrible ppl too n want to run away to nyc too like yassss
having anorexia is so funny like ur telling me when im at my **technical** worst im having the most fun ever cause im skinny? like yes ik im doing technically HORRIBLE rn but im having fun at the same time
i’ve been losing weight like crazy n i can tell even physically n it’s AMAZINGGGG i’ve yelled from excitement soooo many times
LIKE OMGGGG I CAN SEE MY ARMS BONES N MY COLLARBONES R SOOOO NOTICABLE N U CAN SEE MY RIBCAGE + HIPBONES WHEN IM LAYING DOEN THIS IS AMAZINGGGGG
hey guys.
i’m in a spiral of losing myself. constant binges, i mean. i’m all for recovery but i’m asking for tips and tricks and rules that any of you have.
so please, please dm me or comment on this post if you have anything. stay safe. i love you all.
1,8kg more and i’m gonna be finally underweight!!!!! so excited omg!!!!
i hate it when i fast for the whole day and i see the same number on the scale next morning://
yesterdays log:
long hike to make up for yesterdays unconscious intake
dinner with fam: 1 chicken wing
1 chicken sausage
2 ribs
1 toasted sandwich
