#original poetry
was playing around with some prose, they’re not very good but I thought I’d share anyway
My mom likes to ask if I’m in love with my best friend
And although I love the boy, I’m not in love with him
But I grin and blush when I tell her no
I’m not ready to let go
Of the image of me and him walking down the aisle
I know how much that makes my mother smile
I’m scrubbing my neck to get rid of your lipstick stain
Washing your sweet sugar perfume down the drain
He’s the one that holds my hair back when I’m sick
But I can’t stop thinking about the taste of your strawberry chapstick
Sometimes I rest my head on his to remind him that I care
And he knows how much I love it when he runs his fingers through my hair
And he loves me for the things I do when my mom is unaware
He’d be the perfect, golden partner for anyone but me
Because when I kiss my best friend I don’t feel anything
I wish that I’d grown up with a different life
The kind where I could picture a world with you as my wife
But all I can do is kiss your hand in my pitch black basement
If I was choosing who to marry I know it never could be you
But when I live with my best friend I hope I’ll get to kiss you too
I feel as though a large amount of sadness resides within me.. In a way that seems difficult to grasp. It seems to take refuge within the internal confines and crevices… so much so that the intermingling of two bodies—the metaphysical exchange of pleasure, specifically what exists beyond skin-to-skin and pelvis to pelvis contact—allows for an individual to dip into the pool of my vulnerabilities and reach out to me. The leverage one has… to wield the power of healing or corruption— and the jolt experienced from your touch against my skin causes the transcendental silhouette of my being to become water as it returns back to the very pool in which we both stand. To become one with the sadness around me and disguise myself from being captured, warding off others with the unbearable salinity of my tears, yet I am still vulnerable nonetheless. You can take a sip and I will heal you still, though I can flush you out until all you can witness are the waterfalls within my eyes that pool and gently trickle down my cheeks.
Maileta /// the well within me
It seems as though
The intimacy I long for dearly
Will come at a price.
The sweetness between pretty legs
In exchange
For the fulfillment
Of that empty space
Beside me.
Maileta /// quid pro quo, it seems
“Because my emotions can be destructive
Not only to myself,
But to others too.
And I’m tired of losing people because of it…”
Maileta /// never again
pick me apart until i’m nothing but crushed daisies on a sidewalk,
until i’m dreams dashed on the pavement.
pick me apart, love…
pull at my seams,
drag on my soul,
weigh down my world with your burdens.
i will wear them til i drown,
and meet your diligence with my own.
so pick me apart, my love…
and i will hold my fragments in open palms for your perusal
until you take them, with pleasure,
your promises a riot on my heart…
your neglect, the rot i should’ve scented from the start
the sun sets;
and earth meets moon
it rises, and the tides rise too
in awe, they stare
silenced by the other’s beauty
interrupted by daylight
before they ever exchange a word
dusk turns to dawn
and we trip over our hearts in the dark
collecting them…
weighing them
knowing we might grow apart
but hoping our love will last
the connection is dim,
but not yet dark
sometimes time
reveals the spark
throw the bone to the wolves;
no mice are out today
the cat is coughing up a lung
and this game’s too big to play
i’m mixing up my metaphors
because you’ve shaken up my brain
the only thing i know for sure
is that you’re the one who got away
forget me
i’m frozen
winter’s cheek rests on mine
like a familiar pillow-friend
forgive me
he whispers
for where you wrote our beginning,
i must call our end
each time we meet, us two,
familiar strangers… me and you
one, a dreamer, lost in the clouds
two, the pen, she can’t quite put down
no warrior of Wednesdays,
no midweek-mad marauder,
my tank is running empty;
i’m a survivor, not a soldier
Oh those spring afternoons filled with bird song and laughter, drunk on the afternoon sun and clear breezes.
Would anybody be interested in book reviews or book recommendations after I finish reading them?
I’ve gotten back into reading an awful lot now and thought I could start a book club or book reviews tag on my blog for people to find easily. Plus I’ve just been given a week off work so I have a lot of reading time on my hands!
Let me know if that’s something you guys would be interested in seeing here!!
Hope the start of your week has been wonderful!
- Finn <3
I know I’ve shared this before but I’m not scrolling through my archives to reblog it it was quicker to just make a new post. I’m going to be sharing a few poems from my Vocal page.
Vocal has made a few updates, they’ve introduced a little feedback thing you can give to writers at the bottom of our pieces but they’ve now also made commenting on peoples work available. So if you like my work of have feedback or anything on it feel free to leave a comment or feedback. You can also give it a heart/like if you wish although idk if you need an account for that tbh.
Vocal does also have an option to leave a tip which is never expected but always appreciate or if you prefer I now have tipping on tumblr as well as my Ko-Fi which I have the link to on my Vocal and there you’ll also find access to exclusive poems for supporters.
Enlightened
An exclusive poem about Bipolar and it’s cycles. Filled with hope it documents my journey towards recovery after breaking free from the constant Bipolar cycles that have been with me since I was a teen. It uses nature elements throughout & has an uplifting tone.
My
starlight in a bottle boy,
burning up from the inside.
My beloved supernova.
Finally come to end it all?
Finally going to let us rest?
Solar flare,
don’t you dare
burn
our house
down.
Time can only
heal the entry wound of the
poison barb
you left inside me:
rotting love,
festering longing -
purple toxin living in my
blood.
Your hand in
my hand,
but
time struck and
you stumbled —
down,
down,
down —
oh,
were our shattered knees
and
scraped hands,
blood-tinged teeth —
were they worth it?
(Was it worth it to
clasp
our hands
so tightly that
one circle, two —
rings of fire,
surrounding us both
forever?)
My once known shadow,
but my forever estranged enemy,
held me so tenderly when I gave him what he longed for:
goodbye.
You love that little blade:
cradle it’s handle oh so gently.
Sing it soft songs to sleep.
Warm it’s metal with your rest laden body.
You love that little blade -
even when it cuts.
Have you ever loved in scales?
Perfect balance?
Perfect symmetry?
Each step mirrored -
where one goes, the other
follows?
The smallest shift in weight can
jar the balance -
a breath,
a kiss,
a tear,
a moment.
A clang as joints disband.
A crash to the floor as you
spin out of orbit.
It will never be the same.
You will never be the same.
But -
But,
once,
you were lucky enough to
love
in scales.
Once,
you were whole and
perfect.
Oh,
sweet memory,
the icy blade between my
bones.
Oh, sweet love,
the ailment lingering in my
blood.
Oh, sweet agony,
burning through my
lungs.
Oh, sweet lover,
lost from me
forever.
Oh, sweet sadness:
eternal companion and
penance.
And he saved you from
disaster and ruin,
your beautiful fire-starting boy.
The flames he lets lick your
salt-soaked remains
don’t change that.
Many times,
he saved you.
Many times.
(It only takes once for
destruction
to lay waste.)
(It only takes
forever for a
heart to break.)
Carved your name into my
cold bones
and was stunned when you showed yours:
pristine.
Something tender,
something sweet;
loveliness found in
rotten meat.
And what of falling stars,
and crashing waves?
What of split tectonic plates?
What of
you,
me,
us,
and the yawning chasm
between?
(Do you still say my name like
the only
prayer
you’ve ever
known?)
And I wonder when I’ll stop
seeing your face
in every
tragedy and
betrayal.
One word,
never uttered,
forever lingering in my mouth
and
burning eyes.
One word I wished I had the courage to say:
Stay.
I opened my arms to comfort you
and
you went for my throat with a snarl.
Monsters need love, too
(but only on their terms).
I’m so tired of this
heartache
wrapped in
barb wired love.
Darling,
you are an
axe hammer
and, I -
a sheathed blade.
Do not forget:
we are both weapons.
(I know how to cut, too.)