#anorecyx
someone needs to kill me now before I do it myself
Porque atragantandome con comida hasta no poder respirar estoy bien
Porque tirando toda mi comida a la basura te digo que estoy bien
Porque mientras me lavo las manos después de vomitar te voy a decir que estoy bien
Con un ataque de ansiedad y luego llorar en el suelo durante dos horas igual te sonrio y estoy bien
Cuando no recuerdo lo que pasó estoy bien
Porque cuando corre mi propia sangre estoy bien
Cuando apreto tan fuerte mis puños hasta que mis uñas quedan marcadas en mis palmas aún estoy bien
Cuando rompo mis cosas estoy bien
Porque a pesar de que me hacen menos con palabras y actos a diario estoy muy bien
Porque a pesar de reírme estoy bien
Cuando los consuelo, los escucho, los abrazo, los ánimo siempre estoy bien
YO SIEMPRE ESTOY BIEN
SIEMPRE ESTOY BIEN
PORQUE SOY FELIZ Y ESTOY BIEN
PORQUE DEBO VERME BIEN Y ESTAR BIEN
I fucking hate people that say “omg you need to eat!!” And then in the next breath say “wow you look so pretty now you’ve lost weight!!” which is it BITCH
is there even a single good reason to get up when you can just sleep forever?
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I was just reading the can of my monster and it says to not drink it to replace food and to not to have more than one a day so that’s not good
Legitimately thinking of picking up vaping or smoking because I heard it suppresses your appetite.. this is a new low lmfaooo
I wish I didn’t feel the need to stop eating the week before my birthday, so that I can eat cake and still feel guilty about it but, here we are
Omg my friend sent me a message and it sounded kind of like a goodbye message so, obviously I freaked out and kept texting her making sure she was ok and, it ended up being a misunderstanding but we talked for like 10 minutes about how much we needed each other and, we both promised not to ever do that and I cannot stop crying I’m just realizing how much she needs me and we need each other so, I have a reason to stay now I guess
Currently really not loving my life lol but my birthday is in a couple of days and I don’t wanna die before my birthday ya know also I just want to be at school again so I can stop eating lunch at my dads but I really don’t wanna go back to school lmao
I got my braces wire tightened today cause, my orthodontist opened and, am I gonna use it as an excuse not to eat? You fuckin bet!!
Forgot to log today but, I just had a couple veggie sushi’s and an iced coffee about 560 cals total anyway to the point of this posts lmao, does anybody else kinda want to go to the hospital or a psych ward cause, you could leave all your responsibilities and get away from your life or, am I just crazy???
Yesterday I ended up consuming a “normal” amount of calories and, same with today and I feel so awful yay so I’m gonna try to fast for 45 and half hours (very specific ik lmao) or more before I go to my dads and, I’m going to try to stay in my cal limit at my dads all week even though it’s really hard but, I lost 4.9 pounds this week (probably just water weight) and I’m planning to keep it off I don’t want it back Lmaoo and on another note my friend keeps unintentionally triggering me because, she has an ED and she’s trying to recover but, she keeps calling herself fat and, talking about weight gain and, weight loss and, restriction and, all that which makes me really insecure cause if she thinks she’s fat I’m a fucking whale compared to her so, I feel shitty lol.
I feel like an awful person rn cause my friend is in recovery for anorexia and it’s making me want to lose a lot of weight before the next time i see her so she’ll be recovered and I’ll be the skinny one and that is the shittiest thing I’ve ever thought of and I feel so awful about it but it’s just me ED talking I guess :(
I forgot to log the past two days so, on Wednesday I had a small bowl of cinnamon toast crunch and a splash of milk for 203 calories and then, I had tuna for supper for 154 calories and then, half a cup of ice cream for dessert 160 calories and then today, or I guess it’s yesterday now lol, I binged on mostly cinnamon toast crunch and oatmeal cookies with Pb and it came to around 2690 cals. Today my moms making me go out for supper so, I’m gonna try to find the least calorific thing on the menu cause the last two days I ate so shitty lol and then, the next two days after that I’m gonna try to fast.
Oh no it’s summer…
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DON’T eat, it’s not worth it you’ve gone so far don’t ruin it now. Put that food down, You got this! don’t think of food,distract yourself don’t eat, just don’t…You’ll regret it.
This is for me, but you could use it if it helps. :)
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Black and white thinspo/ribspo
I’m not eating this week, because I want to be skinny also be skinny when I return back to school, when school opens again.
Hunger pains are kicking in ✌
Okay i forget to make this but here it is: (btw it’s 5:38 am probably not at the moment when you’re reading this but still)..(And yes I haven’t slept yet)
What I ate yesterday
Breakfast: 0 cals
Lunch:0 cals
Dinner: 0 cals
Mood bc I didn’t consume anything:
