#shadowwork
No one will know the violence it took to become this gentle.
Literally anything I don’t like about myself is something I can change or work towards bettering! Like hello! I’m wet clay in my own hands!
We’re there, right in the doorway of a new era - Aquarius time, 5-d Earth, new evolutionary sequence. That’s completely okay to feel lost now, to allow yourself experience grief and sadness. It’s a way to go through the corridor between yesterday and tomorrow.
Process your feelings. They’re the way.
Past and future dancing on the same string, chalices up and hall is crowded with people, but there is always someone in the corner, turning chalice down, because there’s so much going on, because feelings and memories of the past are lingering around asking to sit with them.
Take a sip, the pain, the sadness, emotionally deep, looking in dark water. Stay there for a while. Time is coming. It’s already here. You’re blessed to live it.
Emerging from your feelings, from the silence of your empty chalice.
This is a healing journey,
there is always a wound, fear is wrapped even in the most shining smile. Your childhood can be an imprint of the main themes in your healing journey - this is a time when we can see deeper, when we’re wise enough to open for any experience and craving for teaching, no matter how harsh, horrible it can be, our soul is fresh with the memory of why we’re here.
So we’re ready to go - passed unnoticed to the adults, words and actions towards us as children can stay with us for years, mirroring in various difficult experiences.
Inner child
That’s all held in our inner child, the first sparkle of our personality free from conditioning by education, family, social groups etc., widely open for life and its experiences as they are, full of play, creative fire and ability to accept and give love. It’s the most clear imprint of our soul.
Trauma
Trauma shadows the inner child, making him\her retreat into the deeper parts of the psyche, he\she isn’t a warrior at all, so quietly slides inside, leaving vague memories.
When we approach the trauma - see it, starting to descend into it, slowly healing, the inner child is coming further.
Things that can bring the trauma into the light:
*** meditation and relaxation through any kind of technique that help your body and mind to open up and release stored energy of the wound,
*** setting intention that you’re ready to reveal your wounds and start healing can be a great deal, it’s a kind of signal you’re sending to your conscious mind at first and then letting this intention go, forgetting about it, you allow your unconsciousness connected with cosmos to start working on it,
*** focusing on the things that can point to your wounds:
- natal chart (look at Pluto, Chiron, Lilith)
- evaluating repeating negative patterns in your life, your blocks
- going to see your parents or staying with them for a while (the last thing is advised if you want no less but enlightenment)
- reflecting on the relationships with people closest to you,
*** trying to reconnect with your inner child - dance, sing, embrace your creativity and try to see how your inner child responds to that, eventually you can even write a letter to yourself as a child.
Healing
Healing is a slow process of opening up to the trauma, letting wounds to be revealed, accepted and healed. There is no specific time, pace, process to do that. It’s like letting the flower bloom, not trying to open up the petals, eventually ruining the natural process. That flower is your inner, truest teacher, eventually it makes us grow, teach us love, compassion, understanding, let our souls evolve.
Explore. Reframe. Embrace healthy conflict. Celebrate that value is in your effort, only that matters.
❌Ascension is political ❌
I’ve tried journaling so many times & I often fall off or am not consistent. This daily prompt has been the only one to work for me consistently so far. I found out about the fears & resentments list from a channel on YouTube called Crappy Childhood Fairy. It’s not only good for releasing “normal” day-to-day fears, but have helped me so much in healing my trauma that has been at work on a subconscious level.
Because a lot of the time (every day) Im healing a different aspect of my trauma, I felt it was needed to add in a list of things that Im proud of myself for & a gratitude list. It reminds me that I am further in my healing than I give myself props for & helps ground me in the present.
Another personal touch that helps me is listening to meditation music, rain sounds, or just about any relaxing music that will help me as I write and process ♥️
Another #selfhelp hack especially for those that have trouble organizing their thoughts ( like me) or have planners leftover from school.
How I make the prompt work for me is writing the fears/resentments [Step 1] on either a separate notebook or way in the back of the planner where the “notes” section is.
For [Step 2 ] Things I’m proud of myself for/Gratitude list- I use the boxes that are in the daily notes behind the calendar
For [step 3] “ I am” statements
I actually wait until Sunday to do. In the “ weekly to do” section I write a gratitude list based on the entire week & the in the empty box next to it I write my “ I am” statements to set the tone & energy of the upcoming week. *even if your handwriting is too big to fit info these tiny boxes, this layout is a great way to organize your thoughts*
Get creative!
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