#post traumatic stress disorder
Online Therapy - I do not currently offer online therapy. My sponsor BetterHelp can connect you with a licensed, online therapist, please visit: https://betterhelp.com/kati
In this video I’m talking about one form of Dissociation, Maladaptive Daydreaming. Recently, I made the video 5 General Types Of Dissociation & How To Deal With Them (linked below) and many of you asked for me to do deep dives into each type. This first video is part of a series and I’m speaking to Maladaptive Daydreaming. Is Maladaptive Daydreaming bad? Is it good for you? Maladaptive Daydreaming help, how to best manage it, and so much more. Make sure you wait until the end to see how to best manage this form of dissociation. And let me know in the comments which form of dissociation you want to see a deep dive on next.
5 General Types Of Dissociation & How To Deal With Them: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFxFj…
TRAUMATIZED - available here: https://geni.us/Bfak0j Today I’m sharing 7 ways we can help someone with PTSD (also known as post traumatic stress disorder) because, frequently I’m asked by members of our community how they can help those they love, or they feel like they are always doing the wrong things and want to know how to make it right. These 7 tips I’m offering today are very helpful, but I really dive into these topics deeper in my new book Traumatized, so if this is something you really need support with, I strongly suggest really digging deeper here to best support our loved ones. In this video I’ll talk a little bit through PTSD symptoms, PTSD support, how to help someone with PTSD, and so much more.
Click the link in the description to preorder yours and get access to the first 2 chapters today!
To learn more about PTSD: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL_loxoCVsWqzLptVD96E-DOlzWhbXT_H8
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is a condition that some people develop after experiencing an extremely traumatic event consisting of actual or threatened death, serious injury, or physical or sexual violence. Many people who experience these types of events do not go on to develop PTSD. Events that cause PTSD:
- directly experiencing or witnessing firsthand: violent personal assaults, such as sexual assault, mugging or robbery, prolonged sexual abuse, prolonged domestic violence or severe neglect, military combat (includes being a prisoner of war), being held hostage and/or tortured, terrorist attacks, natural or man-made disasters
- learning of an unexpected and severely violent injury, assault, suicide, or death of a close family member or friend.
- in professional settings- repeated or extreme exposure to violent details of traumatic events, such as first responders collecting human remains, or police officers repeatedly exposed to details of child abuse (an important note:doesnotinclude exposure via electronic media unless work related)
For a diagnosis of PTSD according to the DSM V, the following symptoms must be present for at least one month (Acute Stress Disorder has similar symptoms but they last for less than one month). and impair social or occupational functioning, cause great distress, and aren’t accounted for by any other factor:
- two forms of recurrent involuntary intrusive re-experiencing of the events: disassociative flashbacks where upon exposure to triggers, the person feels\acts as if the trauma is actually occurring, intense recurrent nightmares directly associated with traumatic event, recurrent involuntarydistressing memories of the event (not rumination)
- alwaysor almost always avoiding: memories, activities, people, places, or events that provoke distressing memories\thoughts\feelings associated with the event
- two hyper-arousal or reactivity symptoms: hyper vigilance, intense startle response, concentration issues, reckless or self destructive behavior, irritability, sleep issues due to heightened arousal, concentration issues, angry outbursts
- two memory or mood symptoms: inability to remember important aspects of trauma (not due to intoxication or head injury), self-blaming, inability to feel positive emotions, diminished interest in significant activities, feelings of detachment, distorted negative thinking about the future,
Risk factors for developing PTSD include:lack of emotional support following the event, childhood trauma and pre-existing PTSD, mental illness, and other stressors following the traumatic event. Factors that decrease chances of PTSD include:emotional support, lack of guilt and initial healthy coping mechanisms. There’s a correlation between PTSD & suicide, and many people with PTSD have reported suicidal thoughts. There’s also a link between PTSD and depression, addiction, panic disorders and personality disorders. Successful treatments include Cognitive Behavioral Therapies: Eye Movement Desensitization & Reprocessing, Exposure therapy, & Cognitive Restructuring. Medications used to treat PTSD include SSRI anti-depressants and anxiety medications.
i have it too among others and my 30 yrs have been painful
Post link
Typically, i don’t make posts like these on this account, but the topic felt appropriate.
The creators of the Netflix series “13 Reasons Why” have absolutely no excuse for their graphic portrayal of the events that took place on the show. In this post I’m going to plainly break down some gruesome scenes from this show and another, so if you’re triggered by r*pe, sui*ide, ab*se, child ab*se, self h*rm, h*mophobia and intense bullying, please don’t go further. If you still want to see the point of the post, scroll down and find the divider I’m putting below this section of text (im on mobile and can’t put a cut)
-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-
That said, 13 Reasons Why is a show about the sui*ide of a high school student, and the boy who fell in love with her. Romantic, right? I have a lot of personal feelings about this production, but I’ll remain as unbiased and neutral as possible. I’m not here to bash anyone’s hard work or comfort content, I only want to make a point.
During the production of the first season of this show, producers were told by sui*ide and mental health professionals to not show the sui*ide on screen. That’s entirely fair, as a show about sui*ide would attract victims of sui*ide and seeing it could cause panic attacks, relapse, etc etc etc. They did it anyway, having the main character found in her bathtub with her wrists [redacted].
And then they went further in season 2. I don’t know the exact nature of the situation, as i only watched this one scene, but… A male student was in the bathroom at school, and some jocks came in. The lone kid was apologizing to them, saying he didn’t mean to do what he did and that he was getting help. The jocks weren’t listening, and they accused him of ruining whatever sports season they were hung up on. The ringleader slammed the lone boy’s head against a mirror and then the sink below it, if i remember correctly. Then, they dragged him to a toilet and drowned him in it. Worst of all, they pulled his pants down and penetrated him with the handle of a mop, all while calling him h*mophobic slurs. And all of this was shown on screen.
A show that deeply explores mental illnesses and societal flaws shouldn’t go so far, as victims and the mentally ill view these things and are affected by them. I had just taken my anxiety medication before watching the final scene i described and i was still shaking by the end of it, i felt like i was gonna puke. It was horrific.
-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-
Most people argue that the producers did it so we’d feel the full gravity of the situation. The point of this post is to counter that.
I recently have been watching another Netflix show that is rising in popularity, The Umbrella Academy.
I’ll try to keep this unbiased as well, but I haven’t seen such well presented in depth coverage of the mental illness of fictional characters in a long time. The characters are written beautifully, and their mental issues all make sense and their traumas are depicted in a way that heavily impacts the viewer without scaring them. The best example of this is with a character known as both Harold Jenkins and Leonard Peabody. There is a mild description of child ab*se below, so proceed with caution.
The guy’s mother died immediately following his birth. His dad turned to alcohol and you can assume what happened from there. He was physically and emotionally ab*sive to his son, Harold. But the ab*se was never explicitly shown. In two scenes, Harold was smacked in the face by his father. In the first, the frame froze as he drew his hand back. In the second, we merely hear the collision of the man’s hand coming into contact with his son’s face, and then we see the boy laying on the floor.
As a child abuse victim, it did startle me. I felt the full weight of what that boy went through. But i didn’t feel scared. I didn’t get anxious or panicked. I just felt sorry for the kid. And then felt less sorry later when he m*rdered his father with a hammer, which was also not explicitly depicted, but still hit me hard.
My point being, you can enjoy 13 Reasons Why. You can support it. But it does real harm to people that could have *very* easily been avoided, especially being a show that dives into such real, home hitting topics. And there isn’t any excuse for that whatsoever.
Resolving trauma? In MY 2019? Holy fuck
Me, in the middle of a panic attack: I’m probably faking it
why the FUCK does this happen to us? why do we do this to ourselves!?
I feel like a huge part of it is because a lot of us grew up being doubted and treated like we didn’t know what we were talking about when we had a problem at some point or another because children aren’t usually taken seriously even when the situation is worse than anyone could guess
Me, in the middle of a panic attack: I’m probably faking it
One of us used to really like that weird Japanese gore art. Don’t know what it’s called. But it usually has something kinda fucked up written on it. Whoever it was liked it because of the sick feeling it gave us. Then We stopped getting that feeling. Some of that art popped up on our dash and there it was! The same sick feeling. We are feeling alive again, some of us think. Empathy… None of us in front like that art btw. So We don’t know who it was. We don’t actually like the feeling it gives us. But We are happy to have empathy back. Like fully back.
Been losing so much time. Thursday was a continuation of Wednesday. It was Wednesday until it was Friday. There was no Thursday. But it was Wednesday that didn’t start until Thursday. The Thursday that never happened. We probably shouldn’t have Ativan anymore. I forget that We used to black out from Ativan and alcohol. Maybe We are more sensitive in our current condition. We had the outsider hold on to our Ativan for us. Because We knew that We couldn’t trust ourself in the state We’ve been in. Yesterday We asked him for our medicine. He said He gave it to us and that We said that We didn’t need him to hold on to it anymore because We wouldn’t need it anymore…???!!! It wasn’t Teen. It wasn’t Animal. It wasn’t Malice and it sure as fuck wasn’t The Gobos! So who was it? We suffered full amnesia! This isn’t our norm or at least it hasn’t been in a long time. And We’ve been hallucinating. Full, head on hallucinations. That is also not our norm. Not since We were a child. Visual, auditory and tactile hallucinations. We look at our “Trip Check Painting” and the shadows move like We’re on LSD. But We haven’t taken LSD in about a week. We don’t know what this means. But it seems like when We push and stress for an entire semester, by the end of it, something happens to our mental state. We pushed ourself hard, not even this hard but hard enough to cause a state of psychosis in 2019. The last day of class or the very next day, don’t clearly remember, Teen tried to kill the vessel. It was a very serious attempt. And he very nearly succeeded. Was almost rushed to another hospital for a liver transplant but our levels suddenly started coming down. Waking up in the hospital… Never hallucinated that bad in our entire life. A dark shaking figure stood in the corner of our “room”. The walls had weird writing all over them and were moving. Everything had a yellow tint to it.
We are not suicidal. But We are not okay. We do not believe that We are a risk to ourself or anyone else. Other than a possible accidental overdose! That Ativan shit is scary! If We try really hard, We can see someone dropping one of the pills in the trash accidentally then popped the last… 3??? In our mouth. If there were more in there We don’t know if, whoever that was, would have taken all of it.
We did well in Music Theory 101. We did not great at all on our project but ended up getting a 90 on it! Our average was an 89 but when We checked, our overall grade is a 99 point… Something. Can’t really remember but a fucking 99??!! How? Since March We’ve been doing horribly! When We submitted our final project We also wrote a little over 300 words vaguely explaining why We submitted such hot garbage. He wrote back telling me that he thought We were doing well and that he could tell how much work We put in all of our work. After our presentation he clapped…??? We thought he was gonna be like, “Wtf is this?” Even though he did let us know where We fucked up he still seemed to understand that We did know the material We were just having a bad time. None of us saw that coming.
So why are We starting to spiral? Is this just what a burnout feels like for us now? Is there something seriously wrong? We don’t know yet. Hopefully this fades with some rest.
We have never had an issue with cutting people out of our life. We have always had an issue with keeping people in our life… We feel it’s due to having no issue with cutting people out. But it seems to be a way of feeling safe. PTSD… It does feel much more safe in solitude, when you’ve had more abusers than close friends or friends in general.
My fucking god! Maybe if I wasn’t taught that I didn’t have rights over who touched my body then maybe it wouldn’t have been so easy for me to be molested in the first place!!!! So fucking over this shit!
I’m the one trying to heal! We are the ones who were so fucking endlessly neglected and abused. Made to suffer in silence because our pain didn’t matter! Why the fuck is guilt hitting hard from time to time? Why should We feel guilty about anything? We didn’t choose this life! We didn’t ask for the abuse no matter what our abusers say! What do We have to feel guilty for?!
I, Teen am officially done with feeling bad for the way We cope and the way We heal. If you can’t make it better then you have no say. If you can’t take our symptoms away and make existing easier for us then you have no say. There is a reason We don’t have friends. We have too much to work through to be anything that anyone needs!
Holy fuck! Memory unlocked, boys! Okay so We acted a little bit in high school and don’t remember… Anyway We were REALLY GOOD! And We were just thinking, “Oh shit! This is probably why!” THEN We remembered being on stage when We were 16 years old. But We remember like We’re watching from THE AUDIENCE! We can see ourself on stage in costume! Who the fuck was Juliet? Oh and We also just remembered a full switch happening when We were 17 years old. Whoever was acting host thought they still had control. They absolutely did not. And they did feel strange but didn’t know why. They thought they were just playing around. But they became something completely different…
OMFG! FORGOT TO MENTION! Something really weird happened during our psychedelic therapy session yesterday! One of us was texting someone then after sending it someone else tapped in. They started to remember texting but in the memory it was REVERSED! The fucking letters were backwards! What the fuck?!
We did a good thing. But it is going to take some getting used to. So many more are active now. We still don’t know who everyone is. ✌️☝️… So sex is more awkward now. Oh… Fuckin… We’ll tag it with “TMI” or some shit. Right… DMT! I, Malice got us over our fear… Well THEIR fear. Not mine. That’s why I could do it when they couldn’t. Someone was pushing us really fucking hard to do DMT. We don’t know who. But We HAD to. We had no choice. The Gobos kept trying to front for whatever reason. Animal, Teen and I had to keep pulling them out. They were so scared But they were being so BRAVE! I, We want The Gobos to know that We, Animal, Teen and Malice are so very proud of you. You never have to do anything like that though. We will always protect you. No matter what happens. Okay? You brave little souls have no need to worry. You are completely protected from harm. Someone else is here with us. They seem to really care about The Gobos as well. So… Umm… See? You guys are safe!
Anonymous asked: I’m writing a story dealing with a female character that’s a solider or a marine…I haven’t decided which just yet. But I’ve realize that I don’t know where to start my research and I hope that you or maybe one of your followers would know where I can start. I want to know what kind of training they go through, the combat/positions in it, weapons, ranks, speaking in code, PTSD, etc.
I wasn’t sure exactly what branch you meant when you said “soldier,” so I decided to use this as an opportunity to get links for all four branches. I’ll start off with the Marines, since you said she might be a Marine, and I will put information about PTSD at the end of the post.
Marine Corps
- The Official Website of the US Marine Corps
- This Marines website has links to the history of the Corps, eligibility requirements, and more
- Women Marines Association
- Marine Corps Times
- Surviving Marine Corps Basic Training
- What to Expect at Marine Corps Basic Training
- US Marine Military Ranks (also has a pay scale)
- Roles in the Corps
- US Marine Corps Enlisted Job Descriptions and Qualification Factors
- Marine Corps Weapons
- Marine Corps Terms, Slang, and Other Sayings
Army
- The Official Homepage of the US Army
- About the Army
- Women in the Army
- Benefits
- Soldier Life
- Surviving Army Basic Training
- Army Training: Basic Combat
- US Army Ranks
- US Army Military Ranks
- Careers and Jobs
- Army Enlisted Jobs
- US Military Weapons of War: Army
- Military Terms & Acronyms (this looks like it has generic terms from all branches, but to be fair, I haven’t looked through it thoroughly)
Air Force
- US Air Force
- The Official Website of the US Air Force
- Air Force Women Officers Associated
- Air Force: Basic Military Training
- Basic Training
- Surviving Air Force Basic Training
- A Female’s Perspective of Air Force Basic Training
- Air Force Civilian Jobs
- Careers
- Air Force Enlisted Job Descriptions and Qualification Factors
- US Air Force Military Ranks
- Air Force Rank Structure
- Gallery of US Air Force Weapons
- US Air Force Weapons School
- Unofficial Air Force Language
- Air Force Terminology
Navy
- The US Navy
- America’s Navy
- Women in the Navy
- Navy Physical Readiness Test
- Surviving Navy Boot Camp
- Recruit Training Command
- Careers & Jobs
- Careers & Jobs: Reserves
- Navy Enlisted Job Descriptions
- Rank Insignia
- US Navy Military Ranks
- Navy SEALs Weapons
- Naval Terminology
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
You deserve the love and kindness you give to everyone else.
“How’s it feel?
How’s it feel to be so loved?
How’s it feel to be so loved, yet so alone?”
When someone tries to get me to open up
I never had a childhood, or the chance to be innocent, that was ripped away. I never had the chance to know how it felt to be truly loved and validated, how to grow up healthy and experience the joys of it. I missed out, I was fucking robbed and I grew up a broken, empty shell that I am only now learning how to fill.
Im so sick of this pandemic and how common eugenics is just constantly now. I have spent the evening crying and actually most of the day crying because of how little people care about how so many have just died so quickly.
Me to my SAD lamp
