hey guys i m attempted recovering again for a bit but i have myself now and my best friend is saying she wants to be a size 5 , i’m trying to lose more before it really triggered me so i’m back again ,
delete tumblr. delete myfitnesspal. delete any and all calorie tracking apps. go into your kitchen. right now. get up and walk into your kitchen. now make a pot of pasta or spaghetti. or make a salad with chicken or a smoothie. or make a few eggs with some potatoes. or heat up the leftovers in the fridge. don’t count it. don’t measure it. don’t look up the calories. then sit down and eat the whole thing. don’t cut it up small, don’t wait until a certain time, don’t stare at it for forever before you eat it. cook it, put it on a plate, and eat it. maybe scroll through instagram or watch a tv show while you eat. like a post on your explore page about loving pizza without thinking of the calories or feeling fat. when you’re done eating, don’t go to the mirror, don’t go to the scale, don’t go to the toilet to throw up. then go on with your life without thinking about what you just ate or when you’ll eat next. now do that every time you first feel hungry every single day for the rest of your life.
if you can do that, fine. i’ll believe you. you’re “faking it”.
but if even one step of that sounds like your own personal hell, shut up because you’re absolutely not fake and your problems are beyond valid and you deserve to recover right now right where you are.
Will never not reblog this! You are valid and deserve recovery
this is so powerful! read it!!
Me: I’m deeefinitely faking my ED
Also me: *nearly having a panic attack from just reading this*
this is something i definitely needed to read! makes me realize that you don’t have to be a specific weight to have an ed. It’s a mind game.. your body is the result of whatever your mind has controlled you into believeing and doing. stay safe
