Once you see results, it becomes an addiction…

i’m back and definetly not doing better than ever

last few days have been on my period and been having a hard few days

i feel numb.

i wish i can go back and to tell myself to stop eating.

day 3: had a peanut butter sandwich, an apple and apple sauce and a granola bar

weighed myself and i’m 165 about 2-3 pounds to go before monday

day two: not so bad but don’t feel as great about it as i did yesterday. and it’s only day two fml. gotta keep going.

two months of work will be so rewarding at the end

(Not me)

But the thinnspiration

The feeling you get when you realise you’ve actually lost weight!

Do you ever get up out of bed at 3am to check your scales?

Yeah… me neither bro

Short people problems.

So I weigh about the same as one of my mates, only problem is she’s 5ft7 and I’m 5ft2… I look and feel so much fatter than her.

Fucking niggles at my head all the time ‍♀️

…

So tonight I come home, my (I don’t know if I can deal with you ED) boyfriend wants to take a step back from everything and see how things go being apart for 2weeks…

Honestly I tried to take everyone’s advice by eating but it got to the point where I would eat a hole meal and then went to the bathroom to cry…

I don’t think I’m really cut out for this world but I guess I’ll just have to update this little life track (blog) I do and see where life takes me good or bad…

Worst thing is now I feel low I wanna BINGE to fuck… but I know I’ll regret it‍♀️

Help!…

So I’m staying at my boyfriends place for the weekend… (Friday to Sunday)

And he’s said he wants to go on cute dates and make me dinner…

How do I hide my ED from him now?!

I don’t exactly want to eat some, tell him I’m full and then got to the bathroom to throw up?! Like he has an on sweet in his dorm room?! ‍♀️

In dire need of help and advice please?!