#anarexic

Ice is just candy for Anas

can someone be my buddy, just someone i can talk to about anything going on

i’m back and definetly not doing better than ever

last few days have been on my period and been having a hard few days

i feel numb.

i wish i can go back and to tell myself to stop eating.

day 4: felt so drained today, woke up at 6 cause i had a class at 8 and then my first meal was at 1 and testerday i had dinner around 8pm, so that means i technically did a 17 hour fast¿?¿

wow i didn’t know it was that long until now and ngl i feel pretty great about that. haven’t done a fast in ages, let alone one that lasted that long

oh ya and today was the first time that i had a single-serve meal and i was full after it!! like full to the point that when i was asked if i wanted seconds i said no right away!! like usually i would say yes, then realize taht i shouldn’t and then decline later. but today’s reaction was so quick i felt so good!!!

so today was a very good day

not sure if this will help anyone, but a small little trick that i use to help me go to sleep faster when i’m hungry: i drink so much water til the point that my stomach hurts and then i fall asleep faster cause u sleep faster on a full stomach.

idrk is that made any sense but ya

day 3: had a peanut butter sandwich, an apple and apple sauce and a granola bar

weighed myself and i’m 165 about 2-3 pounds to go before monday

day two: not so bad but don’t feel as great about it as i did yesterday. and it’s only day two fml. gotta keep going.

two months of work will be so rewarding at the end

unknowngirl199424:

[Eating Disorder Intensifies]

☁️hey loves!☁️ I’ve compiled a list of my fav low-calorie safe foods (if you can even call this food, but hey, you get it). REMEMBER! I do not promote eating disorders. By doing this i hope you’ll maybe find an option off my list that you’ve never tried before. Restricting is downright bad to begin with, but I prefer restricting over people straight up fasting themselves to death.

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Green Tea

-do i even need to explain myself?

-good source of caffeine + metabolism booster

-0 cal

Mint Black Tea

-tastes better than green tea (mint come thruu)

-even better source of caffeine

-0 cal

Chai Tea Latte

-milk is a fear food for me so i make it with water (and it tastes amazing)

-VERY filling. I usually substitute dinner with this.

-8 fl oz = 110 cal

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Raisins

-fiber = make you poop

-cranberries are a good swap if you don’t like raisins, but they are higher in calories

-the ones in the pic i got at Target and they are the generic brand but each bag was like 2$ and they bring a lot sooo… big save

- each box = 45 cal

Dried Seaweed

-some might gag, but hear me out, they’re good. I’ve liked them since way before i ever developed this shitty eating disorder

-2 servings per container. 1 serving = 25 cal. The whole container = 50 cal

Rice Cakes

-The OG

-i usually skip breakfast but if i really truly need it, ill grab one of these with some tea and i’m out the door

-1 cake = 35 cal

Pickles

-I forgot to include these in the picture but oh! my! god! they are a life saver

-assuming you like pickles, that is. I know a lot of people that dont.

-0 cal… 0 FREAKING CALORIES!

Mint Gum or Altoids

-minty

Cinnamon Gum

-for when I’m feeling adventurous lol

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LaCroix(or Bubly, whatever sparkly water floats your boat)

-okay ik Diet Coke is a staple ed drink, but the truth is its even worse for your body so please dont drink it every day. Its basically bottled poison. I think the only time i would ever touch a diet coke is under special circumstances, like at a christmas party or something.

-0 everything

Stay safe lovelies! ☁️

I feel great so I’m shooting for 24 more hours :)

Having an ed means doing the most absurd things. Like purposefully choosing to eat cereal with a fork because that way you won’t be catching so much milk in every mouthful. Which, you know, means less calories. Yes, I know its ridiculous. But ican’thelp myself.

daintyfaster:

Me summed up in one gif

I had a complete meltdown because I actually ate dinner yesterday. Like, full on sobbing and pacing around like a nervous wreck. The thing is i didn’t even go over my calorie limit, which is 800, although i usually stay under 600. I swear to God this ed is dangerous. I’ve never felt more crazy in my entire life.

lostallbraincells:

“Anorexia doesn’t mean that you don’t eat. We all would be dead by now.

Anorexia means that every time you eat, you suddenly feel fatter.

Anorexia means that every time you eat, you feel a voice in your head that says “you should’t have eaten that”.

Anorexia means that every time you see someone skinny you feel like dying.

Anorexia means wanting to weigh yourself every hour just to see the numbers going down down down.

Anorexia means wanting to weigh yourself but being afraid to because you know you shouldn’t have eaten that piece of cake yesterday.

THIS IS ANOREXIA. So please, if you don’t know anything about it, don’t come to me with your bullshit, because I don’t wanna hear any of that. “

- sum random ana blogger

This is exactly what goes on in my head. All the freaking time. Thank you

the best thing about a calorie deficit:

GETTING DRUNK EASILY

not me, returning AGAIN, to ED tumblr

this changed a lot for me.

gave me SO much motivation to become skinny

(credit: @ on tiktok = dopeboydey)