#anarecia
I just had a panic attack (and was literally sobbing uncontrollably on the kitchen floor til my parents found me) cause I had planned to have soup and boiled eggs for dinner and I couldn’t find the right spoon and the eggshells didn’t peel off smoothly enough…. Like…Umm wtf…..it’s not that deep babes xo
*starts my period*
ed brain-
…… :(
rational brain-
you sick fuck
So, I’m almost 48 hours into a fast and I’ve literally lost a pound in a day!!!! I haven’t felt this euphoric in forever!!! Manifesting this feeling for all of you, I know you deserve it
You know you have an ed when you literally dream of eating unsafe foods and wake up almost crying
Just found out a single kfc meal is over 1000 calories, isn’t that fun
The world must be telling me to starve myself, my school was selling these really good sandwiches and literally as I got to the front of the line they run out. All they had was low cal fruit water and mini rice cakes
That bot really be trying to make me feel better, like ha imma feel better when my thigh dont triple in size when I sit down
Tricked my parents into buying me some monster energy by telling them I need them so i can stay awake after school
Imagine having a panic attack because you cant get to the last beltloop, couldn’t be me
Took me this long th realise that my mother, “wanting the best for me” was really just fat shaming, who knew
Not me being to scared to cook one egg white and wrapping it in a bowl with cling film to have later even tho I no I wont
I hate my rib cage so much, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I look fat in all of my clothes cuz of it
I hate my calves, no matter how little I eat, they are still giant, sometimes I just wanna cut the fat off
I can’t stand my thighs, they are already big and then when I sit down, boom I never let my thigh touch the chair when I’m in public
Me and my ana buddy when the science teacher is talking about nutrition and they are looking right at us
I just had a panic attack while in line buying food and put everything back and I can’t tell if it was from my ed or social anxiety
What the fuck are these genetics
My ed really making me compare myself to the opposite gender even tho they naturally built smaller
I realised that one of the main reasons I love school is that I can starve easier there and I dont have a pantry full of free food the gorge myself on
I really hate these lockdowns. Its not because I can’t go out with friends or that I can’t travel,but it’s because I have nothing to distract myself from the hunger. I can’t go out shopping for a few hours or go bowling or something. All I can do is go for a walk and if i do that to often my family will notice
Sometimes I just want it to stop. I can’t look in the mirror without feeling ashamed but also feel like this is what I deserve, like I haven’t earned clean wrists and a thin body
