#i hate myself

No more Rocket League :/ I had to pawn my playstation . FML

Aaaaand my phone still needs be paid DX

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I just need a deep rest from myself, I wanna disappear from the face of the earth.

I wish I was 5′6″ and 120 pounds.

kinda just wanna run away or die or something idk.

Love getting attached to my middle aged therapist who reminds me of a mom…love that for me lol.

I never thought my eating disorder was real cause I was never severely emaciated. Yes I was underweight and yes I had a feeding tube at one point, but people would always make comments like “You are extremely skinny, but it doesnt look like you have an ed”. Now my brain is constantly like prove it to yourself and get THAT skinny. Then another part of my brain is like, that’s so stupid and will only make you more miserable. Anyone relate or am I just crazy lol?

Does anyone sometimes cut to prove to themselves that your emotions are valid because you’ve been invalidated your whole life? Cause same.

My dad straight up told me to stop seeing my therapist. That I should just shove all of my bad feelings down and “put a lid on it”. I have never more clearly seen the way he fucked up my head.

wtf how am I falling for my guy best friend 

squatting-albino:

someoneplease draw L doing shots at a children’s party

im gonna do it this will be my task of the evening