bashfulmusician:

Stuck on bed rest at home BUT I’m getting better! Turns out I have another strain of the flu, which is gross, but at least I’m getting taken care of (my mom is caring for me - getting medicines, putting on old tv shows, freezing popsicles, I love her to pieces ❤). Unfortunately though, that means I’m quarantined away from everyone so that they don’t get sick. On the positive side I’m mainly playing around on Tumblr and watching tv. So I’m here, I’m just bored :/ Luckily the medicines are REALLY helping and I already feel SO much better (I might be moving from crackers to soup tomorrow!).

So anyway, I hope this wasn’t a weird post, I get fuzzy-brained when I’m sick. Just letting you guys know that while activity will still be slow, I’m alive and improving.

Pma! ❤

shoelaces #56

i’m don’t know who i’ll be if i get better / am i even a person underneath all my mental illness / i don’t know how to define myself without it bc it impacts so much of my existence

Made this and forgot to post it.

How It Stated. How is going. I’d say there’s an improvement! But I’m definitely still learning!

wholeheartedsuggestions:

if you were truly a bad person, you wouldn’t be so hung up on the morality of your mistakes. the fact that you want to go back and make it right means you’re growing from this and you’ll try to do better next time.

I drove today…and I think I found the solution to a problem with a story Is my writing mojo returning???

We’ll wait and see

Until then, video:

10.10.20

Happy World Mental Health Day.

In these trying times it’s so important to mind your mind.

If you’re struggling, please know that you’re not alone and it’s okay to feel this way.

This pandemic has put a massive strain on the lives of millions and it’s so important that we take the time to be kind to ourselves.

If you’re struggling and want to reach out to someone, my inbox is always open.

Let this be your sign that everything is going to be okay.

Stay safe & lots of love x

mayapoetbe:

I wish there was a chance

for me to be alright

I wish there was a chance

to have a quite good life

-mayapoetbe

kipplekipple:

thatdiabolicalfeminist:

stimmyabby:

when you go from a bad situation into a better one you may collapse exhausted and unsure what to do and full of grief, you may need time to regain the ability to do things as yourself or motivated by anything other than terror, you may need time to process or mourn or fall apart in ways you could not before,

and people may use this as proof that the old situation was better for you, proof that you need to go back, and it is not proof that it was better for you or proof that you need to go back

!!!

It’s so incredibly common to “fall apart” when you’re finally safe. You no longer need to stay so tightly coiled in on yourself, you can finally leave survival mode and process your trauma. You’re not holding yourself up by sheer terror anymore and suddenly the damage that terror has done to you becomes immediate and obvious. 

This is so important. Don’t go back. Things are already getting better, even if it doesn’t feel that way.

Shh—

I feel you, Spring,
Buzzing around my head.
I hear you in my ears,
Reminding me what roots
And what sheds.

“Good is in the inside…”
Waiting! — To thaw,
To break open,
To bloom.

Your incessant whisper:
“Simplify, confront,
don’t avoid.”
Somehow! — Don’t avoid.

We can always get better
Things will always get better.

We are all connected.

I promise im trying to get better.

I haven’t cried in THREE DAYS!

Some people are incapable of loving but you don’t need to worry about anyone but you. You can still choose love and kindness and goodness every day of your life regardless of the hate in someone else’s heart and the ways they have tried to project that hate onto you.

i said i wanna die yet i still look both ways before crossing the road. i said i hate myself yet i still fight to get out of bed every morning. i said im done with everyone yet i still check up on my friends to make sure they are all okay.

maybe there’s still a tiny part of me that wants to hold on.

maybe i still have a little bit of hope left.

unwelcome-ozian:

Down 2.8 pounds and 3.25 inches since last month!

I can tell I am losing weight because a lot of my pants are no longer staying up.