#nervous
Gym dare, hubby is being mean
Meeting with a new potential play partner today that’s a long time friend.
1.2.22
Finally graduating tomorrow after a year and a half of finishing my degree.
(Clearing out drafts - 21/3/22)
Isn’t it funny how something that use to be the worst habit like cutting,carving and burning took over your life, but then all of a sudden its just easy to stop..?
i have been self harming for a year and a half and the longest i have ever gone is 6-7 weeks.. i am currently at 5 weeks and my goal is 8+ weeks. it use to be all i would think about.. 24/7 i would self harm once, twice maybe even 3 times? a day depending in what was going on… i have self harmed not only at home but at school as well.
i remembered one time i was so depressed and didn’t have blade and i was out shopping with one of my best friends and i bought a package of pencil sharpeners and took the blades out cause i was so desperate.
now that i think of it i just think of how i don’t want to be that person and how gross that is, to be so addicted like that, i have no longer wanted to self harm in like 5 months it just doesn’t really appeal to me anymore but when shit happens that’s all i really know to do so i trying to fix that and change that into new habits that are good.!!!
although i say that.. ever since i slowed down and stopped self harming i have started starving myself and am under weight but i will be trying harder to recover as i need to be strong to susceed in my sport,
-Depressed mess (B)
ily all stay strong xoxo
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Me: there is no reason for me to be anxious right now!!!
My brain:………..debatable
Getting my first tattoo today!
One time I tried complimenting a cute girl, and I was trying to tell her that she was really nice and sweet but I wanted to sound romantic so instead I blabbered out, confidently, “You are the kind of person who will not make it to judgement day.” And we never spoke again :)
Please, please, let something good happen.
Would you come back to me again? Because I hope so, desperately.
He wants to talk.
It has been so long.
When a client has a nervous laugh and I’m trying not to mirror them so I’m just like,
Thesis Show 1- March, 14-18
Reception date: Wednesday, March 16, 5pm-8pm