So I tried to eat AS much as I can in 2 days at my cousins and wow I did. And I didn’t purge anything too. Weirdly I don’t regret it. Only because today I’ll be going back to starving myself again. Wish me luck !

Imma try to not eat today

Because I failed every other time so :,)

I failed the 24 hour fast sorry guys maybe I’ll try tomorrow

I started at 215 and now I’m down to 188 it’s feels amazing but I have so much longer to go

I went to the doctor last week and was prescribed ✨anti anxiety meds✨

BITCH

I started them on Tuesday and I’ve lost 7 pounds bc I feel so violently ill after taking them ☺️

Can someone please send me meanspo or some advice I’m sick and tired of binging at work and then wondering why tf I gained weight or didn’t lose any at all

I work in a restaurant and what I used to do was eat a little and purge but then my coworker caught on and I’m too nervous to do it anymore

And half the time I end up drinking 2 or more energy drinks to suppress my appetite but then I’m hyped up and jittery for the rest of the day

☁️hey loves!☁️ I’ve compiled a list of my fav low-calorie safe foods (if you can even call this food, but hey, you get it). REMEMBER! I do not promote eating disorders. By doing this i hope you’ll maybe find an option off my list that you’ve never tried before. Restricting is downright bad to begin with, but I prefer restricting over people straight up fasting themselves to death.

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Green Tea

-do i even need to explain myself?

-good source of caffeine + metabolism booster

-0 cal

Mint Black Tea

-tastes better than green tea (mint come thruu)

-even better source of caffeine

-0 cal

Chai Tea Latte

-milk is a fear food for me so i make it with water (and it tastes amazing)

-VERY filling. I usually substitute dinner with this.

-8 fl oz = 110 cal

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Raisins

-fiber = make you poop

-cranberries are a good swap if you don’t like raisins, but they are higher in calories

-the ones in the pic i got at Target and they are the generic brand but each bag was like 2$ and they bring a lot sooo… big save

- each box = 45 cal

Dried Seaweed

-some might gag, but hear me out, they’re good. I’ve liked them since way before i ever developed this shitty eating disorder

-2 servings per container. 1 serving = 25 cal. The whole container = 50 cal

Rice Cakes

-The OG

-i usually skip breakfast but if i really truly need it, ill grab one of these with some tea and i’m out the door

-1 cake = 35 cal

Pickles

-I forgot to include these in the picture but oh! my! god! they are a life saver

-assuming you like pickles, that is. I know a lot of people that dont.

-0 cal… 0 FREAKING CALORIES!

Mint Gum or Altoids

-minty

Cinnamon Gum

-for when I’m feeling adventurous lol

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LaCroix(or Bubly, whatever sparkly water floats your boat)

-okay ik Diet Coke is a staple ed drink, but the truth is its even worse for your body so please dont drink it every day. Its basically bottled poison. I think the only time i would ever touch a diet coke is under special circumstances, like at a christmas party or something.

-0 everything

Stay safe lovelies! ☁️

Alright hoes i went on a two day binge but im back on my bullshit 

I miss the empty stomach feeling so tomorrow im doing a water fast.

I feel great so I’m shooting for 24 more hours :)

I weighed myself just now and at first i could’ve sworn i made a mistake cause… it said 126lbs????? Like?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I double checked and triple checked and it was still the same. Last time i weighed myself was months ago at my last doctors app and it was around 137lbs. I obviously want that to get lower but im still so happy to see some progress omggg this is unreal!!!!

I’m obsessed with this dress but I know I’ll never be able to wear it like that, but my cousin, she’s like my real life thinspo. Literally, and she doesn’t even try. She eats 24/7 and is so dainty and cute. I love my cousin with my heart, I really do, but sometimes I wonder what it would be like to look like her, just for one day.

Why I Want To Be Skinny

How wonderful it must feel to be skinny, to feel comfortable in your own skin. To wear short pants without your thighs rubbing, to wear crop tops and have a flat stomach, to be able to wear a bikini without worrying about back rolls, to be able to wear normal sized clothes like oversized sweaters. To be able to be with someone and not feel like they’re embarrassed. Being light enough to be carried.

I’m the family disappointment, the embarrassment. The ugly little sister. The fat friend. The one who wears a smile throughout the entire day only to cry myself to sleep every night.

Pathetic

If only crying burned as much calories as exercise. I’d be as pretty as my fav thinspo

woke up having gained 1lb??

I did not binge, I did not understand..

I am now breaking out, and bloated. now it all makes sense.

checks

hand check

I just made veggies when my aunt texted me “I’m outside”

so I left my veggies in the microwave to go get diet coke with my aunt since she has a car and I can’t drive. I walked around town for about half an hour, got my diet coke, then we came back - my aunt helps me bring the bottles inside and make the comment “it smells like garlic in here”

OH SHIT I FORGOT TO FUCKIN EAT EM

I FORGOT I EVEN MADE VEGGIES

drew all over it, can I post it now tumblr?

I love how I was the lazy kid in highschool, and was just naturally thin back then.

no one then would have thought that 10 years later I’d be literally starving myself after gaining 70lbs being agoraphobic, never leaving my house, and binge eating on the daily.

I’m still scared of the world but binging can suck a dick, watch me be emaciated by christmas I’m fucking determined and once I’ve made up my mind there’s no fucking stopping me.

I want people to stare, to worry, to comment, to GRAB MY SKINNY ARMS AND SAY “hey, are you eating enough? you look unwell”

to make the doctors who ignored me when I told them what I was doing, worry about my health. maybe then they’ll take me seriously.

it’s the RAWRing 20s

get ready to LOL XD RANDOM

my sister is thinner than me and eats far more, she has an issue with her bile duct so food doesn’t get digested all the way.

I’ll be thinner than her by the end of the year. I WILL.

logging something unusual into my calorie counter app with the barcode

when the counter actually knows what it is and how many calories are in it