Any advice on how to get out from a baaaad binging episode?

Please

My mom bought cookies

I don’t know how to stop thinking about eating them.

I know that when I taste a single cookie, I’ll end up eating all of them.

I don’t want to binge.

What should I do?

Ribs

I wanted this so badly, every bite less, every second of exercise made me feel good.

I wanted them to see my ribs and that they thought it was easy for me to be thin, that everyone would stare at me and smile at me because I was pretty.

But when they look at my ribs, they feel terrified, they beg me to eat, I made my siblings cry, they thought I was going to die.

This isn´t the kind of care I expected.

I’m pretty, I’m depressed

5 things that nobody tells you about ed

1. At first everyone encouraged your weight loss, now they look horrified as you weigh even grapes.
2. You know you’re destroying your body and you feel good about it?
3. You’re never in control, it’s food what controls you.
4. What’s the point of looking good if you don’t even have the energy to get up because you’ve only eaten half an apple?
5. You never get to feel happy because a small part of you knows that you’re wrong. The scale will say what it wants, but your mind will never agree.

I know having an ed isn’t something to be proud of.

Too much of everything becomes unhealthy, it includes stop eating.

Staysafe♡

“oh baby, you just have to set limits”

That’s the problem. I have no limits, I have no control.

And sometimes I can go from eating 4000 calories in a day, to eating absolutely nothing. There is no middle ground.

I can’t stop.

Restricting your calorie intake is like sticking your tongue over the edge of a knife. At some point you’re going to push too hard and hurt yourself.

Eating less and less isn’t setting a limit, it’s pushing the limit towards the lowest.

And for me, whatever limit I put myself, it’s unreachable.

Staysafe♡

Oh honey, do you want to go shopping?

I hate going to buy clothes.

When people ask me why I don’t like shopping, I tell them it’s because it bores me, but the truth is that when I go into a store, I’m excited to see all those dresses and skirts, but then when I see my reflection, I remember that my body doesn’t look the way I would like it to and that probably none of those clothes will look good on me.

Those thoughts make me want to cry and I get frustrated, I leave the store and come home with empty hands and an empty stomach I don’t want to fill.

Stay safe♡

Hack #15267

I know I’m not the only one who struggles with this:

I CAN’T EAT S L O W L Y

I usually eat very fast and I know that this influences the way my digestive system digests food, but I am so used to eating in that way, that the classic advice of “eat slower” doesn’t work for me.

First I have to get used to my mind, because it is a habit that I’ve ingrained from forever.

What I do to “train” my brain to eat slowly is to use the cutlery the other way around.

If I eat soup, I do it with a fork, if I eat chopped fruit, I do it with a spoon. In this way it is more difficult for me to eat and I do it slower and in fewer better bites, which psychologically makes me feel as if I had eaten a lot.

It may seem ridiculous at first, but it’s a small change that makes a big difference.

Pd. I only do it when I’m at home, because people might see it as something weird lol

Staysafe♡

⭐ Web sites that helps me ⭐

Treadmill calculator

This page calculates the calories burned when you use the treadmill based on your weight, distance and speed.

It also gives you an equivalence of the calories you burned in food or in activities that burn the same amount.

You also have other exercise options, but I use the treadmill because that’s what I do.

Losertown

I think that many of you already know it, but basically it makes a projection of the weight that you will lose according to your level of physical activity and the calories that you want to consume. Something extra is that it tells you your bmi and its limits

I’m thinking about making a part 2, let me know in the comments if you need a specific recommendation

Staysafe♡

What should I do?

I’ve been having this “meh” feeling about food.

It’s weird because usually thanks to my BED, I always think about food. It’s not that I’m not hungry, but I just don’t care to eat anymore. I eat my 3 principal meals every day and that’s enough, I don’t want snacks or anything.

The problem is that everyone is watching me to make sure I eat and I don’t know what to do.

How can I pretend that I’ve eaten so they don’t ask me to eat?

Update

Hey guys little update

I’ve lost 4 kg (8.8 lb) in the last weeks, however, I have some reflux problems (yes, ana worsened the situation in my esophagus), so I’m taking medication and trying to eat a healthier diet.

It’s nothing serious, I just take anti-reflux medication.

I have been denying recovery and cheating for some time to continue losing weight despite my recovery treatment, but I’ve made it a point to take it seriously as a goal for this year.

The advice comes here:

Journeys have ups and downs, if it is necessary to break some rules to be better with your health, do it. You deserve to eat. I know that recovery is not easy and remember that no one should force you to do it because it won’t work until you do it out of conviction.

Staysafe♡

Hey, new diet!

Lately I’ve been having trouble following diets like the ABC (because the more I restrict, the more I binge) or the healthy girl (because over 1000 cals is too much for me), so I created ✨the album diet✨.

Basically I don´t like taking the typical body check photos, it causes me very bad dysmorphia but at the same time it’s motivating to do something that tracks my progress on those diets.

I made it based on the past times I´ve restricted and been able to lose and maintain my weight.

I have lost up to 2 kg (4.4 lbs) per week without negative physical symptoms such as headaches, dizziness or fainting.

Ed’s voicevs. What comes out of my mouth

“Don’t eat, you look like a cow”: I’m not hungry, thank you.

“You look disgusting when you eat”: I’m done, I just ate before I came.

“All that plate for you alone? You will never be skinny”: can you serve me a little less?

“You ate too much, tomorrow you will gain at least 1 kg”: I vomited because my stomach hurts, just that.

“You don’t look fat, you look deformed”: I don’t want to go shopping, I just don’t need new clothes.

“You’re fat because you don’t know how to control yourself, you disgust me”: I don’t want a cookie, I just don’t like them.

And sometimes the only way to shut up Ed’s voice is doing what they want.

Staysafe♡

Why laxatives don’t work

(Science based)

What is a laxative?

• They’re drugs that are used to PREVENT constipation or PREPARE the intestine for radiological or endoscopic procedures.
• This means, they’re NOT DESIGNED FOR LOSING WEIGHT.

How does a laxative work?

• They accelerate the movement of stool through the gastrointestinal tract by various mechanisms as:
• Increase the volume of stool with fiber (natural fiber, amaranth, wheat) or with water that is extracted from the intestinal wall into the stool (saline, the most used).
• Byirritating the intestine to stimulate evacuation (oils such as castor or glycerine).

So, Why don’t laxatives make me lose weight?

• Because they basically make you poopnotburnfat. You will only lose water and irritate your intestine wall (which can be painful). You’ll continue to be hungry and feeling shit when you rehydrate and regain that weight of water that you lost.

What can happen to me if I abuse its consumption?

• Dehydration (dizziness, fainting, nausea, headache)
• Sodium or potassium electrolyteproblems (can cause heart or muscle problems or cause irritability).
• Abdominal swelling (to the point of looking pregnant), intestinal pain, straining or tenesmus.
• Diarrhea, appendicitis or intestinal obstruction.

SO PLEASE, DON´T USE IT UNLESS YOU ARE CONSTIPATED ‘CAUSE THEY´RE NOT CANDIES OR MAGICAL PILLS, THEY´RE MEDICINES.

Staysafe♡

You think you have the control?

I’ve just realized that everything I do is just to distract myself from food.

I’ve distorted the real purpose of things to avoid eating.

Those things shouldn’t be my distraction, they should be my hobbies.

Staysafe♡

Tips I gathered from rewatching season 7 of SS vs SS:

• Drink lots of black coffee (curbs appetite)
• Wear a bright bracelet on your dominant wrist (not red cuz thats known and too obvious now) to stop you and remind you to not eat or cheat your diet
• FUCK TON OF BLACK COFFEE
• Lots and lots of tea
• Caffeine in general is an appetite suppressant
• Be constantly busy (ex. Work, school, dedication to clubs or hobbies, etc)

my cals for today were:

517 - 375 cals = 142 cals

tomorrow is my cheat day so i won’t be updating tomorrow however i might post some thinspo!!!

Not my parents being so “concerned” about my weight and telling me I need to eat more, only to then shame me for eating a biscuit. Thanks, I hate it here

Okay so over the Christmas holidays and then until today (11/01/21) I have been eating “normally” and so I guess sort of like recovery?? Idk it wasn’t a real recovery attempt I just had to eat cause I’ve been around my parent 24/7. I gained a couple of pounds over the holiday as I tried my best not to eat loads, but now I am more determined than ever to go back to restricting and lose the weight I gained and then more weight so I can finally reach my goal weight. Skinny legend here I come✌️

Wish me luck, and stay safe always

So this guy I’m talking to told me he only likes skinny girls and wouldn’t like me if I was chubby or fat, so I guess in some way it was a compliment/way of calling me skinny but tbh it just made me feel much more self conscious about my weight and body also fat phobia is not the vibes like….. no sir, I am the same person whether I’m fat or skinny, I may have an Ed but I do not support fat phobia