#anoressic
Gum Fast :)
I have this habit where sometimes I will place a stick of gum in my mouth while I’m getting ready for work, then I chew it throughout my entire shift without switching it after it runs out of flavor and without taking it out to eat anything, and then, finally, I throw the gum away after I’ve gotten home and changed out of my uniform.
I find myself very proud of the restraint I display in not consuming any additional calories outside of the 5cal from the initial stick of gum during the 4 to sometimes even 10+ hours I spend at work. Not to mention the fact that I strangely find myself enjoying the taste of water more when I do this, even when there is no flavor left in my gum.
I’ve decided that I am going to attempt using this stategy to fast for longer periods of time. In my first ever attempt at this, I will see if I can fast for at least 48hrs (2 days) with one stick of gum in my mouth. My stretch goal will be 100hrs (a little over 4 days), though that may be difficult to achieve since I’m going to be working on day 3 and so I might need to eat that day in order to have strength for work. Like I said though, 100hrs is a stretch goal; I’ll be satisfied with just the initial 48hrs hours if that’s all I can do since it’s been quite a while since I’ve completed any sort of fast successfully. :)
Update: Unfortunately I only managed to do roughly 39hrs on my gum fast, because, when I got up from my mid-day sleeping session, I had temporarily forgotten about the fact that I was supposed to be fasting and unthinkingly ate a snack I found when I entered my kitchen. ♀️ 39hrs is better than nothing, but I’m still kind of disappointed in myself. Hopefully my next attempt at a fast goes better than this one, whenever it is.
Gum Fast :)
I have this habit where sometimes I will place a stick of gum in my mouth while I’m getting ready for work, then I chew it throughout my entire shift without switching it after it runs out of flavor and without taking it out to eat anything, and then, finally, I throw the gum away after I’ve gotten home and changed out of my uniform.
I find myself very proud of the restraint I display in not consuming any additional calories outside of the 5cal from the initial stick of gum during the 4 to sometimes even 10+ hours I spend at work. Not to mention the fact that I strangely find myself enjoying the taste of water more when I do this, even when there is no flavor left in my gum.
I’ve decided that I am going to attempt using this stategy to fast for longer periods of time. In my first ever attempt at this, I will see if I can fast for at least 48hrs (2 days) with one stick of gum in my mouth. My stretch goal will be 100hrs (a little over 4 days), though that may be difficult to achieve since I’m going to be working on day 3 and so I might need to eat that day in order to have strength for work. Like I said though, 100hrs is a stretch goal; I’ll be satisfied with just the initial 48hrs hours if that’s all I can do since it’s been quite a while since I’ve completed any sort of fast successfully. :)
i lost all the weight i gained back last week and i noticed some alarming things…
i always mess up things in a pattern and j repeat the same loop of patterns all the time
shit usually hits the fan when i allow myself to watch or read something while eating so that’s never going to happen again
my insomnia and laziness is such a power couple
i don’t do anything during the day then i write 2 essays and study for the physics test at 3 am
today went ok i went to training and i also did my regular 40 min -500 cals workout
i did eat fast food with my friends and indeed more than i’d like to admit but as i didn’t eat much otherwise i’ll let that slip ( I let it but my evil braincells are still creating this living hell out of my life bc of those *chiccy nuggies* )
sleep well darlings<3
i’m back to report that the relationship with my mom is now irrepairable and due to all this stress i gained a kg in a few days
but to share some god news i’m in the final round of the selection process of a scholarship program that would allow me to spend a yeer in the us for free the closer it gets the less i want to go actually as i wouldn’t be out of reach for my parents or any parent so just moving by myself seems more appealing but also i literally have no idea how i’d make enough money for rent
enough for now we’ll see anyway
more good news: i started pole dancing and it’s a whole lot of fun also if shit hits the fan i still could be a stripper lol the new sport actually gives me a lot of motivation to get my shit together i want to do high res (800 cals) plus a workout that burns around 550 cals and stretching every day except sunday wednesday and friday as those are already training days
i just want a slender body and hollow cheeks that’s all i want
i need to be really pragmatic about food it’s there to fuel my body not to please me duh
i did my workout which is according to the youtuber’s fitness watch burned around 800 cals so yay
i think my net cals are in the minus range
nov 01
workout: done
studying: not yet
i maintained in october completely but my mindset haven’t been this fucked up like ever
no sweets november
no eating outside the house november
no eating between meals november
working out every day november
actually losing weight november????
my goal for november is getting in the 52 range lol
gotta change layout and do cute accountability posts
edblr please stop making sick people sicker and treat your own ed’s please i know it’s hard but there’s more to life than counting calories i know because i’ve been there and if i can do it i know in my heart you can
