„W ciągu 10 minut pomalowałam się, uczesałam się, ubrałam się, tysiąc razy powiedziałam “kurwa” i dalej już z górki… Starałam się przeżyć kolejne godziny, starając się nie dostać załamania nerwowego, kurwicy albo histerii.”

NN

I want to

I want to scream

I want to die

I want to…

titachi:

‘’bi people can pass off as straight irl it’s why they’re fake’’ they don’t pass off as anything you’re just assuming they’re straight. you are assuming their default is straight. you are being heteronormative. shut up and get your obvious biphobia away

Brain: You can’t eat all that foot.

Binge: Watch me.

Ana: WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE YOU FAT, WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT?!

Me: I’m so sorry, oh god.

Mia: It’s okay sweetie, come here…♡

Therapist: How are you feeling?

Me: I don’t know.

I think most people, including myself most of the time, have already forgotten the situation we are right now. Like as in Europe everything is getting better we think the problem is solved everywhere, but then reality comes back and you realized that it is not that simple.

Anxiety has no chance against Keanu ‍♀️

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Yup. Mining Bitcoin sure is bad for the planet with an estimated 37 million tons of carbon dioxide emissions a year.

To put into perspective how much CO2 that is, we’d need to let grow 155 million mature trees for 10 years to suck out the carbon dioxide emissions caused by Bitcoin mining alone for only one year.

Half of all the crypto mining in the world is done in southwest China where power is provided through the burning of coal. The rest aren’t innocent either as most of the world still gets most of its energy from non-renewable sources that emit powerful greenhouse gases.

The fact that crypto mining is so energy intensive combined with the sources of this energy are what makes it a terrible choice for our planet. This could be prevented if renewables were used for meeting the energy demands.

Sources:

https://www.icos-cp.eu/science-and-impact/global-carbon-budget/2020

https://www.instagram.com/p/CKrCLRnFc6y/?igshid=1ce9kl0wf3ryu

https://www.usda.gov/media/blog/2015/03/17/power-one-tree-very-air-we-breathe

MIEDO.

A la gente le da miedo morir, a mí me da miedo vivir.

Ya sea bueno o malo no quiero sentir.

Con este infierno que llevo y soy, lo único que hago es herir.

Do you?

Does anyone else sort of use their eating disorder as like a really fucked up comfort blanket?

Like I do okay for awhile, I eat little more, weigh a little more, still hate myself but then something tips me over the edge and I’m straight back to starving myself because that’s what makes me feel safe and it’s the only thing I’m good at, like it feels familiar and comforting, even though we all know eating disorders are horrible nasty things, that never really make you feel better?

I don’t really know what I’m doing anymore, I feel so lost and confused. I push everyone away because I’m toxic and because I don’t know what to do when someone cares plus everybody leaves my anyway - might as well save myself from the pain.

I’m tired of being lonely, but I’m tired of being left behind.

My life has no future, but I don’t really try to create one.

I don’t know how to trust people, or let them in.

I just don’t know what to do anymore.

Dlaczego zawsze gdy jest dobrze wszystko nagle się pierdoli?
Mówią że po burzy zawsze przychodzi słońce, więc dlaczego u mnie działa to w drugą stronę?  

Why must I crave a women to please

I need a long hug and a gentle punch in the face with a chair or something.

Hello everyone I’m back!! Finally got my companion back from Wacom so I can start drawing again. Currently working on a children’s book so I can make money and leave the miserable job I have.