#we starvin

I think I have a hernia causs there’s a squishy ball in my stomach that shows up after exercise that hurts and causes chest pain; so yeah I might die, and?

Havent weighed today, probably still weigh the same anyway.

Imma wear this for my senior pictures when the new dates come up since I missed dit the first time rip.

I don’t need to eat

My stomach is already filled up with spite and sadness

Me: *has a mild misunderstanding with my family about an unimportant thing that wont even matter in a couple of hours*

Also me: tHis wouLdNt HaVe hAppEneD if I wAs sKinnY aNd nOw tHeY hAte mE beCaUsE iM a fAt pieCe oF sHit

Wanna hear something pathetic?

I want to be a soldier. That requires me to be physically and mentally strong. Because of my disorder, I’m neither.

What a fuckin joke.

Tell me why I gained 7 POUNDS after 1 FRICKING BINGE. Are u serious rn?? It took me a week and a half to lose it and I gain it back in ONE DAY???

Someones trying to set me up.

I’m 9 pounds away from hitting my second goal weight… we’re getting there folks

Slowly but surely

I’ve managed to not binge for a while and it’s making me lose a couple of pounds, which is good.

But I’ve noticed I’ve been a lot meaner to my friends for no reason and I’ve been a lot more impatient with them. It just makes me sad because I cant control it and I’m genuinely almost always angry. (Bcs I dont eat that much)

But hey, I gotta make some sacrifices along the way to stop looking like a pig. If I have to lose a couple of friends along the way… then I guess thats just gonna have to happen.

I reaaaaaaally regret not stretching before working out last night. My leg has been in a constant mild cramp this whole day…

Hopefully it gets better tomorrow lol.

P.S. If yall got any tips on how to lessen the pain it would be very much appreciated.

Hol’ up… so you’re telling me theres people in the world that actually managed to lose weight in a healthy way?! Without starving themselves???

What is this black magic you speak of?!

GUYS

So i have been afraid to step on a scale for a while because I have been straight up binging for a whole MONTH. And today I’ve decided to face my fears a just see the damage I’ve done and my weight remained the SAME. I DIDNT GAIN ANY WEIGHT.

In fact, I’m actually a little bit lighter now.

Thank you God, I love you.

I’m back on track

TRY NOT TO COUNT FRUIT IN UR TOTAL CALORIE INTAKE PLS

THEY HAVE A LOT OF FIBER SO YOULL FEEL BETTER AND IT WILL HELP UR DIGESTION

*I know it’s hard but pls try *