If you get brain fog like I do while fasting, pls eat something.
Also, you would think that she would learn/do something about it after the first time. But no, she was careless and put her ed first and almost took another life. How selfish…
Wow, my eating disorder really has me eating 635 calories instead of the usual 1300 cals the day before my doctors appointment so I can weigh less…. + a 18 hour fast
Wow, I really did this for my appointment to be canceled
In the bright side, I woke up to weigh 139lbs!!! I’ve never seen the 130s before so this is super exciting
I binged today for the first time in 2 months. I feel awful. I hate myself so damn much. My brother and I got into an argument and I havent gotten so upset in such a long time. I dont know why it made me have the urge to emotionally eat so badly. It didn’t help that I havent lost a pound in 2 weeks. I was only eating 900 calories a day too (occasionally eating 1300 cal when I really needed it). But eating 1300 cal today wasn’t enough. I ate 1955 calories today. Im never going to be skinny :(
I made a goal to myself that when I weighted 150lbs that I was finally going to allow myself to post on Instagram again. I weighted myself this morning and I’m at 148lbs. I took a good look at myself and now I’m going to wait till I weigh 130lbs to post.
I don’t even Want to stop eating to loose weight anymore I’m just tired of feeling controlless and over thinking about food. I’m tired of eating something and right after dictate myself for eating it, or wanting to be different body types nothing like mine every other day. one day my arms are too big, the next day my love handles or too big, the next day my ass is too small. One day I want to work on my muscle and eat protein, then the next day I’m worried if I’m gaining weight cause of the protein, then the next day I want to starve myself then the next day I want to keep my boobs. I’m exhausted. Why can’t I just be enough?
You know that person you find so lucky because they have the person you have deep emotions towards?the person you find so beautiful it hurts?the one that makes you feel like you’re not good enough even though youve never known them personally? You seriously never know if YOU have been that person someone else wants to be,you never know if someone wishes they looked like you or got the attention their crush gives to you. You seriously NEVER know,just like how that person that makes you feel so negative doesn’t know.
I commented something like “yasss ana” on an OBVIOUSLY disordered meal as a joke and i got attacked by all these people saying to not make fun of people with eds… Pinterest does not get it
Snacks: iced latte with almond milk (67 cal), ½ fiber one brownie (35 cal), some mocha cookie crumble frapp with coconut milk (43 cal)
Total: 819
Exersise: -426 cal
Net total:
394 cal
I feel so bad, I was on the edge of binging and I ate stuff I wish I didn’t, hopefully tomorrow will be better. I had to exersise so much to burn off the extra calories. I would really appreciate some meanspo right now, feel free to send me some!
Snacks: a little bit of guava white tea unsweetened (26 cal), 4 pieces of gum (20 cal)
Water intake: 48 fl oz
Total: 70 cal
Exersise: -218 cal
Net total:
-148 cal
Today went well, I do wish I could’ve drank more water but I wasn’t feeling it, although I will probably have a glass or two before bed. I could’ve eaten a cake pop today though and I didn’t so that felt great. Have a great day everyone! :)
Overall today was good, I feel like I could’ve gone without the peanut butter but it’s so freaking good. Not much else to say, I’ll keep you guys posted!
Ew guys I weighed in at 137 today and I am absolutely furious, that’s a 3 lb gain since I last weighed, im supposed to get my period today though so that must be apart of it but still WTF
Did people ever makes comments about your weight in a negative way?
No one has ever made comments about my weight with bad intentions. I was a really skinny kid, so my classmates would occassionaly say something about that and I had a nice butt in high school and for some reason both girls and boys would compliment me for it.
I feel bad because I told myself I would stop it’s so bad for you but that’s what an Ed does to your brain right, it doesn’t matter what’s good or bad just that I can loose weight.
So in an effort to stop purging and still be able to loose weight I will be doing the ABC diet for the next month.
I will be starting tomorrow (Monday) and here are the rules I set out for myself:
Never go over the allowed calorie amount
If for some reason I do go over, I have to exersise until the surplus calories have been burned.
No eating after 7 pm
Every day I must intermittent fast when not fasting the entire day (ofc), either 16:8, 18:6, or 20:4 but no less.
Log what I ate and any exersise if I did it daily.
Have fun with it!
I will occasionally post some recipes with the daily blog, I’ll be weighing myself tomorrow morning, once at the end of every week, and then finally when the month is completed (then I’ll decide if I want to continue the full 8 weeks, if I do I’ll keep on logging my routine) Wish me luck guys!
