How do i delete myself and everything ive ever said from other ppl’s minds.

Going from “today is a good day” to “i hate my life” takes me approximately 2.6 seconds.

It's been a long time since I’ve been me.

I think I kinda looked good today.

I’ll never be loved

I’ll never be special

I’ll never be worth it

I’ll never be enough

Why can’t I just be happy?

I feel like every time I am close to happiness something, someone or even myself prevents it from happening. It’s like I’m not ment to be happy, I’m not ment to go a few days without my mind reminding me how much of a disappointment I am, without my grandmother telling me how imperfect I am. I can’t have a day where my own toughts telling me I would be better off lock away where no one will have to deal with me. I’m trying my very best every day to come off as this happy person but I can’t do it all the time

I’m so numb inside I literally feel hollow, nothing makes me laugh anymore and my heart hurts all the time. I feel like I’m dying I feel like I’m not going to make it, I can’t live like this I want to die

‘it’s getting bad again…’

bestie did it ever get better in the first place??? or did you just shift all your attention, affection and focus into another person, giving them the love you wished you had but never receiving it so it’s just becomes a bottomless well of you just giving and giving and soon you realize you are so addicted to self destruction your 'love’ became the manifestation of it

going through such a hypersexual stage in my bpd and i hate it - i feel like i can’t be alone

i hope i go to sleep tonight and don’t wake up

why am i still alive?

because im really tired of living

What I really want:

Someone to stab my foot.

depression

My loves

I’m back in rehab. I’m sorry. I love you all and I’ll be back soon.

still haven’t gone to bed

have you?

wanting to die 24/7 is tiring you cant even focus on anything else without forcing yourself 

Being sad feels like an endless cycle

The headaches after crying are another type of pain