Having depression and ed fucking sucks like, “ill be happy when im skinnier”, but then its like “will I?” or even when ever i “over eat” (a simple 600 cal meal) because im feeling really sad and trying to cope i feel like a fat shit and like im never going to reach my goal weight and then i fall into another depressive state.
I’m not a fan of carrots juice, but when ever i’m overly hungry I will buy two big bottles of organic carrot juice and force myself to slowly drink both instead of eating, and by the time i’m finished i feel like shit but at least it helps with acne and i am no longer hungry
For the first time in soo fucking long, I stopped watching myself and what I eat but surprisingly I’ve been doing good. I’m not overeating but I’m also under eating for the most part.. I have yet to weigh myself but I have dropped a lot of fat all around. The fact that my entire family and work colleagues are coming up to asking me how am I losing so much weight? Why am I not eating enough? Phrases like “OMG you look so skinny now! What happened to you?” Or even “you’re losing a lot of weight are you okay?” Small things like that is how I know I’m still in this cycle.
Anyways this was just a small rant. Stay safe and healthy everyone!!
