what i WILL have by halloween

• be 100 pounds
• be vegetarian
• be able to grab around thighs with no squeegeeing them
• abs/toned stomach

i wanna go vegan/vegetarian, so can u guys comment some links or just recipes that r low cal thank u

i’m on vacation with my family, they eat so much and make me basically match what they eat. i fucking hate it i hate it. i fucking can’t deal with this shit. they make me eat breakfast even though i don’t like breakfast, they make me eat food i don’t like, they make me feel bad for eating and for not eating. i just wanna go home.

me drinking diet ginger ale because every time i drink it it makes me throw up so we’ll see i guess ✌✌

please don’t dm me anything anything gross. i am still a minor and it’s extremely disturbing when i’m getting dms about my by body in a sexual manner.

bruh when you realize that normal people can just …

0 cal broth

(ok it’s probably like .5-1 calories but…)

ok so i get a bowl of hot water maybe ½-¾ a cup of water.

then get you some tajin (7 cals per tsp)- you don’t need too much, maybe like 1/8 tsp

then *i know most people don’t have this but they sell it for pretty cheap on walmart or online* jalapeño salt(0 cals) and really sprinkle that shit in there

it’s not too flavorful or anything but if you are fasting/ feeling like bingeing it is really good :)

you can also add garlic powder, hot sauce(make sure it’s zero cal) or other spices too.

This formatting looks kinda wonky, but it gets the point across‍♀️I wanna weigh cause Im paranoid but I cant cause parents are home.

guys i’m so pissed at myself, i’ve been adding almond milk (30 cals) into my coffee (i can’t drink it black, i literally just started drinking coffee soo) when in reality my coffee satchel has powdered milk in it anyways…. wtf

I’m taking a food science class this semester :)

I’m excited because learning about food is so much fun? Like food itself is my curse but learning about the nutrition science? I love it.

I’m scared that my professor will clock me as bullimic RIGHT away. Like I know that class attracts Ed sufferers. Im an adult tho so they can’t do shit.

I am addicted to reading fanfics where my favorite characters suffer with eating disorders.

Like fuck it’s so good to read for what reason?

Superrrrr Long rant (merry Christmas )

I can’t stand motherfuckers who use their ED to justify being horrible to others.

Like sorry Jessica, skipping dinner doesn’t give you an excuse to call me a bitch. I’ve been in this game since I was 12. I treat others right. It’s such a scapegoat. Like you aren’t possessed, it’s you! You are your disorder! You are your problem! It’s not your fault but it’s YOUR RESPONSIBILITY. I don’t feel sorry for you, I don’t care if you’re fucked up. Most people are. It’s not a unique struggle. The biggest asshole, waste of air, lowlifes are the people who treat mental illness like this demon that controls them(giving them a freepass to be awful). It’s not. It influences your thoughts which CAN influence your actions. When it comes to binging that can be very difficult to stop, but being nice to others? Hard sometimes but never impossible. And if you are human and do call someone a bitch, you apologize for real. No excuses. No pity party. You hurt someone and right now you gotta make it about them not about you. Despite what you might think, being fucked up doesn’t make you anymore important then someone else. Your illness doesn’t give you any fucking value. It’s just an illness. Nothing more. Sorry for the rant, I’m just sick of seeing so many self centered post in this tags. NO ONE IS SPECIAL HERE. WE LITERALLY HAVE A SUPER COMMON SET OF ISSUES. EVEN THEN BEING UNIQUE ISNT AN EXCUSE TO DO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT. (Unless you’re rich)

Yo how the fuck do adults make friends :(

Also I hit 109.6 B)

My mom won’t stop bugging me in the kitchen fuck off

I got my period. At least that explains the bloat recently.

Also I’m 110.2 now. It’s lower then I’ve been but it hurts knowingly I was 98 before. Oh well, I’m moving on the right direction.

Also being at home is hard. Having to convince everyone that I’m doing so well is difficult. Especially since my mother is being nice. She even let me keep my food separate from the family’s. It eased my mind a little. Still I feel like it’s all gonna be eaten up by other people.

Eating kimchi so I’m scared to purge

It makes me bloat but it goes away once I purge again so-

LMAO I HAD A NIGHTMARE THAT MY PARENTS WERE MAKING ME GET A BBL.

I shit you not I was like “I’d rather just get liposuction and a nose job :(“

First of all? Unrealistic. My parents would never get along that well.

Second of all… what the fuck. Like, why would my brain even come up with that scenario?

Anyways I really do want a nose job but I spend all my money on binge food that just ends up in the toilet. Like my god what a waste. Liposuction is actually terrifying to me and I’m not overweight so I don’t know if I could even get a doctor to do it. I’ll just stick to bullimia.

If bullimia don’t work then why do I ONLY lose weight if I puke everything up?

Like it’s real weight too. Those 40 pounds weren’t water weight.

Have I just gotten my body used to holding food in my stomach like a container rather than digesting? If so, were is the shit coming from?

I don’t get it.

How the fuck do people purge and restrict and lose weight?

I gain like 2 pounds after restricting yesterday and not purging. I’m hoping it’s because I ate a shit ton of kimchi. It’s low calorie but I’m pretty sure it’s high sodium.

Oh well this is just a fun game of trial and error.

Jesus Christ am I full of anger today. My post are so passionate.

Sorry guys lmao. I had a day long binge and purge fest yesterday and my emotions are a little wack. I’m super scared about going home for a month.