Sorry for my radio silence, I just got back from vacation (which was great) and now I’m starting a software development class that will take over my life for the next month.
If I seem like I’m spacing out an neglecting something I should be doing, I’m sorry. I’m simultaneously shuffling and juggling my responsibilities and I can’t juggle.
I know starting a business is hard, but it feels like 7 billion people are also trying to do the same thing, so why would any one give my little company the time of day…?
So I’m alittle overwhelmed with this pregnancy thing. My boyfriend still doesn’t want to keep the baby and I’ve been trying to look for resources to help me out. I don’t have health insurance so making my first appointment to check on my baby has become extremely frustrating. I’ve heard that there are programs for that, to help out with prenatal care, food stamps, free doctors visits, and free vitamims up until child birth but I can’t find ANYTHING! I… I feel like I’m suppose to have this baby but I’m so lost on what to do! I want to ask my parents for help but I know they’ll just ridicule me. Tell me I’m dumb for even wanting to keep my baby. I want to move out of moms house before I ask her for help, I know she’ll be upset at first but she’ll get over it and end up helping me. I just feel like I’m stuck right now. I feel like there’s nothing in my power that I can do! But I’ll pull through. I’ll find a way not only for me but for my child. Even if I have to pay for everything out of pocket I will! Well I just had to get that off my chest. If anyone who has seen has any advice please, please, please reach out to me.
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This quarter, I’m taking 22 units. Yes, 22. These 22 units include 18 academic units, and 4 units serving as official credit for being a TA. Oh yeah, I didn’t mention that I’m also a TA this quarter? I have to lead 3 discussion sections of 30 students each, grade 90 assignments a week, and keep up with student emails.
Yeah.
Last quarter, I had a similar workload but it was more manageable because a couple of the courses were not as academic (i.e. a career prep course, or the required teaching pedagogy course).
Sometimes i feel very overwhelmed, stressed out, and that I’m drowning in work and responsibilities. But then I remember what Nemo said: “Just keep swimming.”
What has helped me manage this workload is simply being on top of all of my deadlines and managing my time well. This means:
Listening in lecture and being 100% attentive (ok fine, 75%)
Starting assignments early, and submitting them when I’m done
If there are group assignments, I need to coordinate early.
Tracking all due dates in my planner and calendar so there are no surprises along the way
Taking “me” time - Netflix, face masks, eating ice cream. You name it!
Easier said than done right? Definitely. When I do get overwhelmed, I have to remind myself of why I’m in this program, too. This graduate program is only 2 years long, and I want to prepare myself for the workforce and my career goals. And maybe throw in another quote, “no pain no gain”!??!
Summary: Loki looks on as you slip into despair over a spilled mug of tea. But then he knows it’s not really about the tea, is it?
Warnings/Notes: Maybe this one is a little bit more autobiographical than my usual Lullabies? My husband broke one of my (many, many) mugs earlier this week and maybe I had to hide myself away and cry my face off because it was just the final straw. Things suck and it’s hard to see any real, actionable way that little people like us can do anything about it, but maybe Loki’s out there keeping an eye on us. Do what you can.
I’ve Got You
He hadn’t meant to do it.
In a way, surely, he wasn’t the one to do it at all. It was Thor. It was always Thor. If it wasn’t his loud excitement, it was his booming anger, or—perhaps most infuriating of all—his childish whininess. That whininess, and the pouting, were all that Loki could think of in the streets with his brother when Midgardian women swarmed them and begged to take pictures with the great and wonderous god. Would they fawn over him the way they did if they knew about the hundred-year strop Thor had thrown late in his adolescence? Surely not.
“I was too exhausted most of the time even to contemplate writing. But I did take notes - not for fiction, but for a journal, or diary, of this terrible time. I did not think that I would ever survive this interlude. “ Joyce Carol Oates
