#ana tingz
my scale doesn’t work. like seriously why does everything go downhill? fuck
Today’s calories : 1389
will i ever escape the 4 digits?
why do i make everything so complicated? like why can’t i just eat a fucking meal and move on with my life or eat when i’m hungry and stop when i’m full? why can’t i just be normal??
Today’s calories : 2214
i just want this to be over
i binged. i’m so fucking ashamed and disappointed of myself. i wanna scream, but i can’t ‘cause they’re going to hear me and think i’m like insane. fuck
I just want my bellybutton to be like
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Instead of
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Yanno
I just had a panic attack (and was literally sobbing uncontrollably on the kitchen floor til my parents found me) cause I had planned to have soup and boiled eggs for dinner and I couldn’t find the right spoon and the eggshells didn’t peel off smoothly enough…. Like…Umm wtf…..it’s not that deep babes xo
Tricked my parents into buying me some monster energy by telling them I need them so i can stay awake after school
Water fasting: Day 8
Today’s thought: I can’t sleep because I’m so anxious at the moment for tomorrow’s family lunch out and i dunno what to do.
And yes, even though my mum bought me some sugar-free wheat bread I would still prefer “Plain *Ice cold* black coffee (Sugar-free)” because I trust what I see than what is labeled from the grocery. Yea I don’t trust food just like guys.
Mum gave me this… I don’t feel safe eating bread again this is not one of my *safe* food…
This is a shirt when I was still at the larger size.. Now it is hanging and doesn’t embrace my body anymore the hang gave me a glance at my old self, it looks huge on me.. But a little bit of cringe because I still blame myself on indulging on food before made me realize how fat I was before.. Now I’m far from my starting weight.
Saw this on my screenshot.. God! This is how worst I am, even nuggets terrifies me a lot.. I was a the point on purging after that.. But end up jogging for 2 hours.
Just got home after I was admitted to a unit…
Damn.. I gained 5kg.
How hard does it for someone to understand that ED is not just plain and simple as * GO… EAT!“ I will solemnly agree if you can heal a cancer patient with one session of chemotherapy!! This is so annoying! I’m so tired of this explanation cycle! God d*mn it!!
My anxiety level is so high at the moment, my mum cooked some fried rice and egg with tomatoes. I gave her the illusion that I will finish my food.. THEN… My ED be like: “ NEVER AGAIN… YOU’LL NEVER GAIN AGAIN… GOT THAT?
1000 jumps done, it’s been 2 weeks since I started this and still water fasting, this is a little bit exhausting because my vision is kinda funny. I also knotted both sides to add more weights on the rope.. This is a weighted jumping rope to begin with its just I want to spice a little bit on the jumping rope game so I knotted both sides and it heavier now. Overall its still worth it because there’s a lot of progress..
No one:
My vision whenever I try to get up:
This is the tricky part of water fasting, when you need to pee then suddenly your vision is messing up with you.
me? using my ed as a coping mechanism? naaah never
me, 3 minutes later, using my ed as a coping mechanism: ✌️
