#tw ed stuff

i rlly just have the urge 2 isolate myself all day evry day

My semi-inactivity is due to the fact that I am currently planning my YouTube Channel :)

And I’m a fat b/tch so y'know

Btw I’ve finally figured out that my desired fashion style is Alternative so I’m happy to finally figure that out

Mom made dinner last night that I couldn’t get out of and it was well over 1000 cals and I’m still so depressed and disgusted over it.

I’m hoping to go to a friends house Saturday and secretly go to a party to just get high n wasted n I wanted to be 110 by then but now it probably won’t happen even if i do go :(((

Until you binge on cheese slices at 3am balling your eyes out abt missing your workouts cause you were just too tired you’ll NEVER be on my levelඞ

(And I pray to God you never are, this shit hurts)

This formatting looks kinda wonky, but it gets the point across‍♀️I wanna weigh cause Im paranoid but I cant cause parents are home.

I think I have a hernia causs there’s a squishy ball in my stomach that shows up after exercise that hurts and causes chest pain; so yeah I might die, and?

Havent weighed today, probably still weigh the same anyway.

Imma wear this for my senior pictures when the new dates come up since I missed dit the first time rip.

TW - Weight and Calories

My weight training class required my bmi so I had an excuse to weigh myself

I am now 113.2 lbs:)

.2 lbs away from my lw

Next gw 110 lbs

My only food for today will be Vegie Straws with the total being 360 And 8 carrots being 32

For a grand total of 392 (400) which is…pretty disappointing on my part tbh. I now have to do 2-3 rounds of my exercise routine.

I said that yesterday but could only do 2 cause my stomach hurts soooooo incredibly bad after I exercise now n my back shoulder area hurts and I feel achy and in a lil bit of pain

Unpopular opinion

But those shoes yall keep swooning over look whack n dirty as hell, stop it

body check haha , ive gained so much weight i wanna cry

some tips :) tw: ed!!

try not eating too low i promise it’ll just make you feel like shit 800-1000 is fine or maybe even more :)

have a metabolism day once a week , i promise it helps i would recommend maybe 1300-1600 to speed up your metabolism and prevents binging

eat mindfully!! eat slowly, it helps making you feel fuller

always drink water before and after meals it helps with bloating too

black coffee helps with cravings

gum makes you feel less hungry

distract yourself or drink water if you’re hungry but if you really need to eat then eat!!

try eating later in the day to make you eat less:)

try not to do heavy workouts because you’ll have like no energy at all , try doing walking, light ab workouts etc

eat foods with fiber!! it slows down your digestion making you feel fuller

it took time to gain weight so its gonna take time to lose weight so don’t stress too much :)

As a kid i was always hungry, now i crave the feeling.

look how pretty>-<

hi guys i haven’t been active but heres some thinspo lol!

trashcanonfire1:

kaleidoscopic-psychedelic:

kittenwivfangs:

h4njicalz:

pros-and-cons-of-hitch-hiking:

I was tagged by @musicacuantica ✨✨ to list my 3 favorite songs at the moment and tag 5 people

1. Dandy by The Kinks

2. Joan of Arc by Leonard Cohen

3. Iron Foundry Op. 19 by Alexander Mosolov

I’ll tag @music-on-canvas@b0hemianbarbie@rogersgarden@gloriouszeta@roberts-dick@britishsixtiesbeat and anyone who wants to

ty 4 the tag @delicutedel (is that the right one? idk) and @hiy0k0!!

my 3 current faves r:

- i cant fall asleep - drama moth

- if im james dean, youre audrey hepburn - sleeping with the sirens

- caraphernelia - pierce the veil (wow can’t believe i spelled that shit right first try lmao)

- honorable mentions: 1-800-CLOSE-UR-EYES - kim dracula , literally any song by lil nas x , haunted - laura les , all the things she said - t.A.T.u. , and party poison - my chemical romance (also skz but skz r Always my favourite so)

i will tag … @chanabana@00394@kittenwivfangs@tiny3racha@self-hatred-hoodieand@delicutedel just in case u wanna do it again on an acc that hasnt been termed <3

uuuuuuuuuuuhhhhh hi

- killer - phoebe bridgers

- punching bag - palaye royale

- the art of anesthesia - saywecanfly

tagz 4:

@launch-me-to-mars@vampiiriic@xxcrischaoticxx@thatneverendingvoid@kaleidoscopic-psychedelic @any mutuals that wanna

AYEEEE THANKS FOR TAGGING ME BESTIE

1. R U Mine - Arctic Monkeys

2. Body - Mother Mother

3. Tokyo Drift - Fast & Furious

Honorable Mentions: Where Is My Mind - Pixies, Song 2 - Blur, Crucified - Army of Lovers, 30 - Badflower, All Of The Lights (Interlude) - Kanye West

@trashcanonfire1@slut-for-freckles@caffeinatedopossum@3mptyst0mach@hauntedangelshark

Jenchdicncncn uhmmmm let me think

1. Working for the knife by mitski
2. Liquid smooth by mitski
3. Aaaand pink in the night by mitski

Yea I really fucking love mitski . Honourable mentions would be Golden Brown by the stranglers , just the two of us , sex with a ghost and literally every other mitski song to ever exist because mitski is my wife and I love her dearly

I’m awful at tagging ppl so @0nyx-h0n3yaand@bone-h0und@2ry1g-b01

oOo alright lemme see—

1. Match Into Water by Pierce the Veil

2. Freshman Boyfriend by H3artcrush

3. Disasterology by Pierce the Veil again

:’)))) aight and now since idk who to tag @trashcanonfire1 gets to be tagged again along with two other random peeps B) i love y’all and hope you’re doin well/better @thipspii@h0neywr1st

<3

fuckkthis-ed:

iced-c0ffeen:

“tell me you have a ED without telling me you have a ED”

those fiber one brownies hit different tho

w4nn4b3sk1nnbon3s:

More th1nsp0

i wanna break my fast but if i do that I’ll gain weight so i cant

trudno wytrzymac jeden dzien fasta, ale po takim jednym dniu jestem w stanie nie jesc tydzien

to zabawne, nic nie potrafie zrobic dobrze ani na nic nie mam sily

mhmm motywacja (teraz 52kg)

47kg - kupie trylogie

45kg - ubrania

43kg - pofarbuje wlosy

Zaraz wakacje, a ja nadal wygladam i czuje sie chujowo