Me: slowly recovering

My roommate: slips up and accidentally tells us all she has an eating disorder

Me:

I can’t believe I got into uni when I’m this stupid. I’m hungover in class rn because I went out drinking last night (on an empty stomach) and all I’ve had today was a lot of coffee. I’m shaking so hard I could be a fucking vibrator.

Disclaimer: I’m not doing this to brag. I know how lonely an ED can be and I just want to show people that they’re not alone. Feel free to contact me anytime, we don’t even have to talk about anything ED related

1) 50kg

2) between 40kg and 45kg

3) anorexia subtype b&p (diagnosed)

4) it’s unclear when exactly it started because I had ED behaviour from a very young age but at the time I had no idea it was a thing, so I’d say since I was about 11 (this is when I started doing it consciously)

5) self fulfilling prophecy - Maria Mena

6) more than I’d like to admit

7) not really, though I do drink it

8) love it

9) no but I do try to have at least one vegetarian/vegan meal a week

10) grapes

11) basically any fast food, it just makes me binge so bad

12) my friends and parents knew but they don’t know I’ve relapsed, at the moment only my boyfriend and one of my friends know

13) nope

14) I’m in uni

15) 20

16) 32/34 eu size

17) yep

18) no but I’m a supporter

No one:

Me looking at my rings:I wANt mY WaIst To lOOk LIkE tHaT

when asked what superpower I would chose, I always say shape-shifting

but it’s really just bc it means I could change my body in a skinnier and prettier one

Does smoking cigarettes really help suppressing appetite ?

Asking for a friend ;)

Some years ago I was a straight A student, I was motivated and successful in everything I was doing, now I’m accumulating B’s, I barely get out of my house and I stress over everything so much I end up failing or not doing it at all lmao wft went wrong

What did you get with the money grandma gave you??

Psychologist: based on how you are feeling and how you are eating… You might have relapsed….

Therapist : do you not eat because you want to lose weight? Are you counting calories again?

Me:

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No thoughts just hello kitty ice cubes and crying

Oh so I’m fat ?

Then how does it feel to see your favorite shorts you wore when you were 10 fall down my legs auntie ☺️?

OMG I WAS GONE FOR SO LONG BUT I‘M BACK BITCHES ❣️❣️❣️

guys i almost fainted in the bus today - PSA

so i was standing in the bus and suddenly i felt like i was fading out of the real world. with every blink everything became more black and i didn’t feel my fingers, toes and lips. i turned to my sister and said „hey i don’t feel so good“ and she told someone to stand up so that i could sit down and gave me something to drink till we we‘re at the bus station where we had to switch the bus.

my dad came and picked me up. after we arrived at home i got a full mental breakdown about how i‘m afraid to fall asleep because i might not wake up again but at the same time i didn’t want to eat because i didn’t want to gain weight.

at the end i still ate a few grapes and some weetabix with milk but let me tell you i was still fucking scared to collapse again. i mean i need to admit the last 5 days i didn’t really eat because even if i didn’t eat above my cal limit i was still purging which is the reason why also didn’t drink enough as i thought i was.

so please girls and boys fucking hydrate enough it’s super important and don’t fast longer that 42h. always have water or a piece of fruit or a granola bar or something with you. in case you get dizzy (and i can not stress this enough) IMMEDIATELY EAT AND DRINK SOMETHING LIKE SIRIOUSLY YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT!!!

don’t ignore the signs of you body.

hey i‘m looking for a buddy/ana twin

reblog this if you are

• 16
• 5‘5 ish
• weigh around 60 kg (132 lbs)
• would be good if you live in the middle european time zone

Just a rant post

‼MENTIONS ED,Self harm, Suicidal thoughts ‼

Iv recently had a lot on my mind and no one I can share with… and I feel like I’m gonna lose it! But I could never cause eather it would cause alot of trouble or I dont really wanna do anything about it… I just want someone to… know.

So heres a list of things I wish I could tell people and who I wish I could tell.

• I still cut my self- Anyone
• I can feel my ed getting stronger and stronger everyday, and I like it-Anyone
• I’m really starting to hate you and your so selfish and annoying and you always make things about you and I really dont want to deal with you anymore- Best friend
• Your mentally abusive and never let me make my own decisions making me feel trapped and I cant wait to get away from you- Mom
• I honestly can’t stand you- Middle Big sister
• It’s getting harder and harder to get outta bed and keep going- Anyone

Any live kik, discord, snapchat, insta, ect ed chats?? I need friends

I really need to get better at self control

It’s been a while since iv fasted/restricted since I went through a idgaf period of my ed

But now I lost all self control! It’s so hard! If yall can tell me somthings yall do to control ur hunger that would help!!

Just started a 1 week fast to get back into things