155.6 pounds today :/

it’s been 6 days and i’ve only lost about 2 pounds. i guess that’s good with easter and and stuff but i am starting to get really anxious about summer.

my mom told me to pick out bathing suits and she told me to pick out some bikinis that i like… i’m so scared. i really need to get myself under control and loose at least 20 pounds before i have to wear a bathing suit.

WEIGH INNNN

IM 157 WHICH IS MY LOWEST WEIGHTTTT

FUCK YESSSS

FINALLY REACHED THE 150s!!!

i lost two pounds in a day from fasting so i’m gonna try to fast again today, or as long as i can last

i’m officially past my first goal weight!!!

y’all i been slacking

i only gained .4 pounds cuz i was still watching what i ate but just not as good

soooo i’m still only 1.8 pounds away from my first goal weight and i’m ready to get back on track and stop being fat :))

no way !!!

i’m only 1.2 pounds away from my first goalweight!

omg i’m so excited to get into the 150s !!!!

sorry i’ve been inactive :/

my mom is on my ass about grades and it’s been so overwhelming. AND my friend called me a fat ass today

it’s almost spring and i’m still a fat bitch

broke my plateu !

all i had to do was take a

shit

02/23/21

UGH i hit a plateau. i’ve been at 166 for almost a week.

somebody plz help and give tips

my grandad said i look like i havent eaten for days is it bad that i took that as a compliment BSHDHS

Literally all I wanted to do tonight was to cook food and bake sweets for my family, it was all I had to look forward to in my mind, but now I can’t do it because I couldn’t get anyone to take me to the store to buy groceries and I can’t drive. So now I’m having a fucking breakdown and crying my eyes out, and all I want to fucking do is starve to take SOME kind of control over SOMETHING.

Maybe it’s a stupid thing to cry over, and maybe it’s my own fault for not having a license and only making plans for things at the last minute, but I just can’t fucking stand how depressed I get every Christmas. I really thought for a second that maybe I could make it different this year but now it’s even worse; having that split second of hope and then failing again anyway hurts even worse.

I’m a mess. A Mess. Every time I think I’ve finished crying and try to distract myself, the tears just start up again.

I wanna starve, starve, starve, STARVE.

My brain when my desire to look like a Monster High Skelita doll and my desire to have a juicy ass like Doja Cat start squaring up against each other in my thoughts at 2am again

So it looks like I’m back to using my ED blog after abandoning it for nearly 2 months.

Okay, so, I’m probably definitely going to weigh more on my next weigh day than I did on my last because I’ve SERIOUSLY been slacking. But on the bright side, I’m very close to running out of my personal food supply, so I think I’m going to start a fast at the beginning of next week when there’s probably not going to be anything left in my room to tempt me.

LAST WEEK’S STATS (09.20.20)
Height: 5'2" (157cm)
Weight: 153.2lbs (69.5kg)
BF: 28.2%
BMI: 28.0 (Overweight)

NEW STATS (09.27.20)
Height: 5'2" (157cm)
Weight: 156.8lbs (71.1kg)
BF: 29.1%
BMI: 28.7 (Overweight)

IGAINEDby: +3.6lbs (+1.6kg), +1.5% BF, & +0.5 BMI Points

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Perhaps choosing to attempt eating a healthy amount of calories for weight loss was ✨a mistake.✨ Can y’all believe I had negative net calories every day for the entire week but STILL gained in the end???? Not even gonna lie, I’m seriously feeling scammed right now, what the fuck. 

Recap of This Week’s Calorie Intake Here

This week’s calorie allowance was:10,500cal
This week’s calorie expenditure goal was: ≥10,500cal

Daily Calories Consumed
Sunday: 1500cal
Monday: 1450cal
Tuesday: 1040cal
Wednesday: 1045cal
Thursday: 1449cal
Friday: 861cal
Saturday: 1680cal
This week’s total calorie intake was: 9,025cal

Daily Calories Burned
Sunday: 1877cal
Monday: 2042cal
Tuesday: 2106cal
Wednesday: 1989cal
Thursday: 2022cal
Friday: 1733cal
Saturday: 2422cal
This week’s total calorie expenditure was:14,191cal

This week’s total net calories were:-5,166cal

Subsequent Stats Update Here

Weekly Ana Recap (09.13.20 - 09.19.20)

This week’s calorie allowance was:3,500cal

This week’s calorie expenditure goal was:14,000cal

Daily Calories Consumed

Sunday: 445cal

Monday: 432cal

Tuesday: 500cal

Wednesday: 453cal

Thursday: 485cal

Friday: 445cal

Saturday: 730cal

This week’s total calorie intake was:3,490cal

Daily Calories Burned

Sunday: 2051cal

Monday: 2003cal

Tuesday: 2079cal

Wednesday: 1959cal

Thursday: 1974cal

Friday: 1892cal

Saturday: 2351cal

This week’s total calorie expenditure was:14,309cal

This week’s total net calories were:-10,819cal

LAST WEEK’S STATS (09.13.20)
Height: 5'2" (157cm)
Weight: 159.8lbs (72.5kg)
BF:29.8%
BMI: 29.2 (Overweight)

NEW STATS (09.20.20)
Height: 5'2" (157cm)
Weight: 153.2lbs (69.5kg)
BF:28.2%
BMI: 28.0 (Overweight)

ILOSTby: -6.6lbs (-3kg), -1.6% BF, & -1.2 BMI Points

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I guess that’s what happens when you only eat 3,490cal the whole week and also burn 14,309cal in total in the same week. ‍♀️ I’m going to try taking it easy for the first few days of this week (09.20 - 09.26), but I’m so excited right now; going back down to, or even past, my LW by next week should totally be a piece of cake!!

Holy shit. I actually lost weight for once.

LAST WEEK’S STATS (09.06.20)

Height: 5′2″ (157cm)

Weight:162.0lbs (73.5kg)

BF:30.6%

BMI:29.6 (Overweight)

NEW STATS (09.13.20)

Height: 5'2" (157cm)

Weight: 159.8lbs (72.5kg)

BF: 29.8%

BMI: 29.2 (Overweight)

ILOSTby: -2.2lbs (-1kg), -0.8% BF, & -0.4 BMI Points

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Proof for myself that you don’t need to water fast or jump into low restriction to lose weight, high* restriction can also be effective, and slow weight loss is still weight loss. What a concept!

*Different people have different definitions of what is a “high restriction”. For myself, I automatically consider 4 digit numbers, including 1,000, to be high restriction. So, I consider this past week of keeping my daily intake at ~1,000cal or lower to be high restriction.

Not to be nasty in the ana tags and shit, but…

Anybody wanna h*ld h*nds with me so my weak-willed ass can feel supported and get through this fucking fast? OML

annalizlisa:

annalizlisa:

I bought new underwear today but they don’t fit exactly how I wanted them to, so I’m going to try to see if they’ll fit right if I fast for an entire week (Sun-Sat)! Both of my parents are going to be out of town for the entire week too, so I don’t have to worry about any homecooked meals getting in my way!!

I’m gonna drink one last caloric drink before bed and then I’m going to use the toilet and weight myself after I wake up and log my new stats in a reblog of this post. See you guys (whoever sees this, if anyone) then!

Measured my new stats this morning and I wanna die. How’d I let myself reach obese status? I’m definitely making the right decision to fast this week.

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NEW STATS

Height: 5'2" (157cm)

Weight: 165.6lbs (75.1kg)

BF:31.8%

BMI: 30.3 (Obese)

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If things go well, I should be around 153lbs (69.4kg) with a BMI of around 28.0 at the end of my fast. Wish me luck; I’m gonna need it.

Okay, I’m a dumb bitch and keep failing really badly, so I’m changing my plans.

I’m gonna just stick to a few foods to snack on for the next couple of days, no meals or full plates, no cooked or processed food (besides dry cereal and crackers), and my drinks are limited to water, diet soda, and Arizona Lite (obviously that has calories, but I can’t help myself ). Anything outside of the base guidelines has be purged, NO EXCEPTIONS.

I wish I could have the same level of discipline to fast for days as I had before, but I guess I have to work myself back up to that level of control.

todays log:

7:30 pm fish and chips with the rents

it felt like alot but im making the conscious decision to resist the urge to binge

stay safe yall ❤️

my insomnia and laziness is such a power couple

i don’t do anything during the day then i write 2 essays and study for the physics test at 3 am

today went ok i went to training and i also did my regular 40 min -500 cals workout

i did eat fast food with my friends and indeed more than i’d like to admit but as i didn’t eat much otherwise i’ll let that slip ( I let it but my evil braincells are still creating this living hell out of my life bc of those *chiccy nuggies* )

sleep well darlings<3

i’m back to report that the relationship with my mom is now irrepairable and due to all this stress i gained a kg in a few days

but to share some god news i’m in the final round of the selection process of a scholarship program that would allow me to spend a yeer in the us for free the closer it gets the less i want to go actually as i wouldn’t be out of reach for my parents or any parent so just moving by myself seems more appealing but also i literally have no idea how i’d make enough money for rent

enough for now we’ll see anyway

more good news: i started pole dancing and it’s a whole lot of fun also if shit hits the fan i still could be a stripper lol the new sport actually gives me a lot of motivation to get my shit together i want to do high res (800 cals) plus a workout that burns around 550 cals and stretching every day except sunday wednesday and friday as those are already training days

i just want a slender body and hollow cheeks that’s all i want

i need to be really pragmatic about food it’s there to fuel my body not to please me duh

i did my workout which is according to the youtuber’s fitness watch burned around 800 cals so yay

i think my net cals are in the minus range

i maintained in october completely but my mindset haven’t been this fucked up like ever

no sweets november

no eating outside the house november

no eating between meals november

working out every day november

actually losing weight november????

my goal for november is getting in the 52 range lol

gotta change layout and do cute accountability posts