…  yeah so if you wanna be my ana buddie dm me 

i gained a pound ! 

lmao i haven’t had any water or food today im living off of oone cup of black coffee 

ss vs ss who ? 

should i fast or eat 150 cals 

im fasting until monday so ill be saying my weight and how i feel until monday

cw : 134.4lbs  ( gw by monday ): 128 lbs 

does any one else wanna be a skinny bitch but still have a fat ass?

…just me?

need to shop but I’m using rain as an excuse not to in reality I’m just scared of buying things out of my comfort zone

completed my first 24 hour fast in agesss! get to try sleep now and aim to beat my 9 day record:)))

I’m so tired of this shit… I restrict for 2 months, lose weight, get motivated, decide I want to lose weight in a healthy way bcs I’m tired of feeling like shit, it doesnt work, i gain weight, i feel like shit (mentally), I decide I’m going to restrict again, I fail in doing so because I cant control myself, i feel even more shitty….

It’s so pathetic. Like, just dont fucking eat it’s not that hard. Plus it’s the only way I’m actually gonna get results so I should just suck it up for 3-4 months and I’ll get there, to my goal weight. I mean, I’ll still be a sad pathetic bitch, but atleast I wont be fat.

So whenever I feel like sTarTiNg tO loSe WeiGht tHe hEaltHy wAy, I’m just gonna read this over and over again.

Me when I find a post that tells me I deserve to eat and that I can eventually recover from my ED:

I’ve managed to not binge for a while and it’s making me lose a couple of pounds, which is good.

But I’ve noticed I’ve been a lot meaner to my friends for no reason and I’ve been a lot more impatient with them. It just makes me sad because I cant control it and I’m genuinely almost always angry. (Bcs I dont eat that much)

But hey, I gotta make some sacrifices along the way to stop looking like a pig. If I have to lose a couple of friends along the way… then I guess thats just gonna have to happen.

Tips for eating less? What do you eat that doesn’t make you gain weight or how can I cheat my brain?

Comment medications that cause weightloss or makes your full that I can get at a pharmacy!!

(Help Everyone on ED tumblr!! And comment below!!)

My birthday dress. I look fat in it when I breathe. I have 1 month exactly. I want to be at most 108 and be officially underweight on my birthday. I am 114.5 rn. Comment tips :)

looking at pictures of an old relationship is sad

but have you looked at pictures from hen you weighed less?

no matter what i do

no matter who surround myself with

i always end up with a diet soda in my hands

food diary ;; thursday 1st october, 2020.

note!! had a little binge at the end of the day,, nothing much,, just because i got really hungry and bad chest pains for no reason. -.-

breakfast ;; 0 calories.

• skipped.

lunch ;; 47 calories.

• 1 whole carrot - 30 calories.

• 15g mashed potatoes - 13 calories.

• 0.4 sachet of ketchup - 4 calories.

• 0.5 teaspoon of salt - 0 calories.

• 0.3 tablespoon of malt vinegar - 0 calories.

dinner ;; 69 calories.

• 2 slices of wafer thin ham - 14 calories.

• 1 slice warbutons wholemeal bread - 55 calories.

snacks ;; 72 calories.

• 2 light rich tea biscuits - 72 calories.

exercise ;; 26.5 calories burned.

• 770 steps.

total calories consumed ;; 188 calories.

— stay alive, you beautiful human

being. ♡

yeah basically

hey peoplee, i guess i’m back… in case you were wondering what happened to me, basically I ended up in the hospital and obviously my and my parents got scared so I decided to stop this and actually take my medicine. But me being me, i decided to try again (prob no as extreme as last time) because I gained a shit ton of weight (at least in my opinion) and I’m about to smack my head against the wall :) so yeah… i’ll try to do my food diary’s again ✌

aaa i miss the time when i could eat in public without feeling like i’m being judged

Updating this cause i ended up eating half of my dinner so i stayed on the 300s (ง'̀-‘́)ง

- //

Breakfast(0kcal):

• green tea (0kcal)

Lunch(194kcal):

• fish, spinach and cheese patty (170kcal?)
• tomato (24kcal)

Snack(127kcal):

• vanilla yogurt (190gr / 87kcal)
• granola (1 tablespoon / 40kcal)
• 2 pieces of gum (10kcal)

Dinner(15kcal):

• lettuce (16gr / 3kcal)
• kale (17gr / 12kcal)

Water intake: i have no idea

Exercise:

Total: ☕️ 356kcal ☕️

it just hit me that we’re close to easter shit too many temptations

I want to be that friend who gets offered to sit on someone else’s lap :/

- //

Breakfast(0kcal):

• green tea (0kcal)

Lunch(105kcal):

• egg white omelette (90gr / 46kcal)
• ham (33gr / 34kcal)
• ricotta cheese (17gr / 26kcal)

Snack(20kcal):

• coke zero (0kcal)
• green tea (0kcal)
• rice cake (20kcal)

Dinner(268kcal):

• vegetarian sushi (1 roll / 268kcal?)

Water intake:1L

Exercise:

Total:393kcal

I hope i stay on the 300’s

i’m being (lowkey?) forced into recovery and i’m this close to k wording myself, istg i want to cry so bad

after my appointment with the psychiatrist i saw a really skinny girl in the waiting room and got triggered like-‍♀️ please give me a break

30 day thinspo challenge day 17: “Do you have an eating disorder?”

not oficially diagnosed but today i’m have an appointment with a psychiatrist to determinate that (❍ᴥ❍ʋ) my psychologist says i do have one but my parents don’t think so…

Food diary - 01/03/21

Breakfast(21kcal):

• green grapes (6 / 21kcal)
• green tea (0kcal)

Lunch(203kcal):

• steak milanesa (92gr / 185kcal)
• lettuce (11gr / 6kcal)
• kale (18gr / 12kcal)

Snack(0kcal)

• skipped

Dinner(63kcal):

• roasted eggplant (185gr / 46kcal)
• cabbage (105gr / 17kcal)

Water intake:1L

Exercise:

Total:287

starting this cause why not :)

♡︎♥︎♡︎♥︎♡︎♥︎♡︎

Tracker cr: i don’t know who made it i got it from twitter (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃

ireally need to fix my habit of weighting myself everyday, otherwise i’ll go crazy.

30 day thinspo challenge day 16: “When did you first decide to lose weight?”

hmm i’ve always been overweight so i guess the idea of starting a diet first came to me around 5-6 years ago and it wasn’t even completely my choice but mostly my parent’s :/

- 28/02/21

Breakfast(0kcal):

• green tea (0kcal)

Lunch(131kcal):

• baked sweet potato (120gr / 119kcal)
• cabbage (79gr / 13kcal)

Snack(149kcal):

• brownies (4 pieces / 149kcal)

Dinner(86kcal):

• Corn and squash patty (66kcal)
• Tomato (91gr / 20kcal)

Water intake: i don’t know (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃

Exercise:only a 25min walk (-101kcal)

Total:367kcal

Low-caloriebrownies (37kcal per slice)

~ 9 pieces / 37kcals each, not vegan fiendly ~

ok so i got this from a youtube video and even tho they’re called ‘brownies’ the texture is more of a sponge cake, but they’re pretty good to be that low in calories here’s the ingredients and the procedure:

Ingredients:

• 4 small eggs (all 4 should be 174gr aprox) / 277kcal
• 1 tablespoon of brown sugar / 9kcal
• 2 teaspoons of normal sugar / 40kcal
• 1 tablespoon of stevia or any 0kcal sweetener
• 1 tablespoon of vanilla essence / 10kcal
• 3 tablespoons of sugar-free cocoa powder / 4kcal

Steps:

preheat your oven to 160'C (320’ F)

separate the egg yolks from the egg whites

add the brown sugar, the cocoa powder, the vanilla essence and the stevia or your preferred sweetener to the yolks and mix it

once you’ve done that whisk your egg whites, once they are foamy add the normal sugar in 2 parts and keep mixing until they look pretty firm

add 1/3 of the egg whites to the other mixture and stir (because it helps to encorporate better)

after that, add the rest of the egg whites and mix until the mixture seems even

transfer to a pan (preferably small and please spray cooking oil, mine was 0kcal), put it in the oven and cook for 30mins

that’s it! ♡´･ᴗ･`♡

sorry im shitty at explaining so i’ll link the video just in case <3

and i know that there it says ‘28kcal’ but i did the math and it said 37kcal so ‍♀️

you can also add 3 tablespoons of flour if you don’t like the foamy texture but each piece would be 55kcal i think :)

kakashisgfriend:

yoo i just found a low-cal brownie recipe and it’s 37kcal per slice (if you cut it into 9) i just put the mixture in the oven let’s see how it turns out i’ll reblog this in a few mins

ok but like they’re pretty good ngl i mean, it obviously doesn’t compare to an actual brownie but well it’s actually really good (at least in my opinion) for something that’s 37kcal per slice. It’s good to make it when you crave something chocolaty (?) but it has kind of a egg-like texture (sorry not vegan friendly ) so it seems more like a sponge cake if you guys want to i can share the recipe ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ